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Gorean I have been asked to share my thoughts with all of your members and visitors about life as a Gorean slave.
First let me give you some background on myself. I am owned and married to Master Canth (by the way - one of the most patient men I have ever had the joy of knowing). It is he who introduced me to the life as a slave. He owns my heart and soul. It is because of his patience, strength and his ability to express unconditional love that lead me one night in August of 2000 to go to him and beg for the honor to live as his slave. It is because of this bond that I have with him that drew me to the wish to learn to walk the Gorean path.
To most who watch us on a day to day basis, they would see, on the surface, the life of an average married couple. We are a couple who have to balance the check book, work, deal with family, and all the other events that come from living in the real world. What makes us different is what is not seen, but what is felt in our hearts.
I go about life on a day to day basis as most women do. I work, study, write, tend to children and our household. However, I do not do it for "me", I do it to honor my Master. I do it to honor the "us", the partnership that I am a part of. Even when I am not with him, he is with me, in my thoughts and my heart.
At work I make efforts to behave myself as if he were with me. That means following his wishes of not using certain words. Those words are; no, nothing (nothing as when used in the context of nothing is wrong), and why. This is a command of his because I tend to use these words far to much, and to make me think about what I am saying. This also teach's me to respect his wish's and not to shut him out. I am not allowed to wear panties (unless granted permission and when using common sense - like going to the doctor's). I always have a collar on ( a beautiful white gold hoop with a dragon charm on it). My hair is long and normally held back with a simple barrette (I will wear a pony tail when permission is granted or again when common sense prevails). I am to be respectful to all, but that does not mean I obey all (a bit unreal since I am part of a management team for a discount retail store). This is also while online. I am not required to show respect if the online Dom/Master is being disrespectful to me and/or my collar. Then I am to go to Master about the other Master, and if he is not there, it is my responsibility to tell him how I handled the situation.
What is a typical day like? I wake about an hour before I am to wake Master and dress for work. This is my time to take care of email, chat, let my medication kick in, and make sure the coffee is fresh for Master. When it is time to wake Master, I take up his coffee to him. I kneel next to the bed and gently wake him. I then place his coffee cup on the bedside table for him. He allows me to wear my uniform; black jeans, dark pullover. But no panties. The reason for this rule is to remind me that I still belong to him - and it is as close to being naked as I can get while out in public. When Master returns to pick me up from work, I am to make every effort to greet him with a "thank you Master", whispered into his ear or out loud when we get into the car. This is done for two reasons; one being that it helps me shed the Domme mode I need to have while at work, and to remind me of my place in our relationship. If this manner of greeting is not possible due to people around I am allowed to greet him by his given name and to respond to any questions with Sir attached to it. (If the questions involve the word no, it does create for some interesting communications challenges to convey no without saying no).
At home, if we are alone, I undress and put on my bindings. Clothing is a privilege for a Gorean slave, not a right. It also allows Master fast access to me, should he wish. At home I go about my household chores - at times I may nap (depending on how I am feeling that day). If I nap before I do my household chores I am to ask permission and give Master my reasons for wanting to nap. There are times he will tell me to rest before doing my household chores, because he notices certain things that I am doing that is telling him that I am having a bad day. (Master does work to help me maintain my health. After all a sick slave will not be able to please or serve her Master.)
If a am sleeping , be it in the evening or a nap - I am to sleep naked and with my bindings on. There will be times this is not required due to health reasons. Depending on Master's mood he will chain my ankle to the bed. Again, because of health issues and safety I do have a spare key if I were to need to leave the bed or bedroom quickly. If Master is close or in the bed with me - I am to make an effort to wake him or get his attention first. When going abut my household chores, I am allowed to go about at my own pace. If I need a break, wish to go online, go to the bathroom or anything that is not part of the steps in completing a chore, I am to ask permission. When cooking a meal, I am to ask Master if he has a wish to have something specific prepared. If he has nothing specific. I am to ask him if I may fix something of my choosing. I can cook it only if he grants permission. At home, I do not speak in the third person, that is used only as a discipline measure if I should become "me" in my actions, thoughts, words, or deeds.
I am sure many of you are wondering how my life differs from that of one who calls their relationship "Master/slave". Yes, I became slave of my own free will, and I did give up all rights as a free person when I did so. When I told Master I wished to live as a Gorean slave, I gave up my right to say no. I became a person to be used for his pleasure and his alone. I have no safeword or many of the other things taught as part of a safe, sane, consensual relationship. One thing I wish to make clear is this - I could not have asked for a slave's collar had I believed that Master would or could use his place as a Gorean Master to abuse me in any form. Even though there are those who feel that a Gorean slave has no rights of any kind, even to protect herself from abuse. This is one area that Master and I disagree with other Goreans. It is our belief that each person has the right of self-preservation. Master and I also believe we live on planet Earth and the Gorean philosophy must be adapted to blend in with the human condition. It is my belief that in any partnership someone must have the final say. In the relationship I have with Master, I willingly give him that last say. (Please note that I said Master not Masters. I will honor the requests of those Master has respect for and use Master in my reference to that Master when speaking to him.) It is our belief that to seek to please "all" who will call themself a Master is to only open a pandora's box of confusion and potential abuse. After all even Masters will disagree among themselves as to what is pleasing or not.
I believe Master is better able to protect me and in the process protect his home and his property (that includes me). Even if that means he must protect me from myself. I tend to be a workaholic and I do not like to slow down, even when my health says I should. Master treats me as a prized possession, worthy of love and protection. There are those who will say that a Gorean slave should not even expect that for she is only property, that she is no better than the beasts in the field. Again, Master and I disagree with other Goreans here. How can a slave give with her heart, with her soul, if she feels she has no value to the one who owns her? It is an honorable man who will love and protect a slave they love. As a Gorean slave discipline is more harsh. I knew this when I begged for a slave's collar. I have many habits from past relationships and from life, that I wish to break. I have made efforts to change these unsettling behavior patterns on my own and find that knowing someone is watching me and that harsh discipline may come helps a great deal in the motivation to stop the old behavior patterns.
To be a Gorean slave is not easy. Many more aspects of a slave's life are given to her Master (if not all aspects - what she keeps is up to the Master) and discipline is much more harsh and swift. A Gorean is more often than not met with fear from those who live the various shades of a D/s relationship. For those of us who see the books as having sound philosophy, but do not live them to the letter - we are viewed with distrust or not "real" from our own community.
I make every effort to live the life I have described to you, but I sometimes forget certain things, from the way I address Master to asking for permission. This is not done out of disrespect but due to old habits and the one thing we all have in common, Master or slave. We are all human before we are Gorean.
For anyone who wishes to live a Gorean life - think long and hard upon the subject first. But above all - be true to your nature and your heart first.
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