As Long as Gravel Bitterness Rattles

 

for Kelly at 16

     

1. 

Her mother explained to her that

Human classification consists

Of the following hierarchy:

First - the white man

Second - the white woman

Third - the black man

Fourth - the black woman

 
2. 
So your mom stands on his blackness with taller heels
And warns you that your granddad will disown you
If you spring off a black baby,
 
And your dad will kill you
For calling him friend.
 
What can I say to you, Kelly?
You are a child, battered by bigotry:
 
You are staring in the face of a monster
That will eat your heart and spit out the love,
If you don't stare it down.
 
You are walking into a wall that is harder to tear down
Than the one in Berlin,
You'd better start chipping away now.
 
You are caught in a vice that will squeeze out
Your mind and leave you an empty skull,
It you don't push back.
 
You are sinking farther out at sea than the Titanic
And without a lifeboat,
You'd better become a tireless swimmer.
 
You are chained to a stake whose root
Shoots out the other side of the earth,
Better learn to see visions in the dirt.
 
You and your dad are not one;
You and your mom are not one.
They have split their souls into hate-fragments.
They cannot know love
As long as gravel bitterness rattles in their hearts.
 
One foot is out the door
Waiting for the other to follow:
Even if your heart has to bed down on the porch,
See that your mind escapes that prison house
Or else your soul will be the final victim.   
 
(A slightly different version of this poem appeared in Struggle, Vol 8 No 4, Winter 1992-93)     

 

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