which I find myself constantly
walking around in the daytime,
and falling in at night."
-Edna St. Vincent Millay
To Slick (Boody) with Love
(Momcat)
Slick's Goodbye
My BraveHeart Boody (June 18, 1988 - September 13, 2003)
Did you know the winds would soon cool?
Did you know your body was wearing thin?
Did you know that you were just too tired?
Or did you cross the threshold in your dreams...
Fifteen years, 2 months, 26 days,
I was not ready in many ways.
How could you slip away without a sign
And lead me to believe that all was fine?
Sleeping peacefully or so thought I
Your spirit was free and flying high.
How could I know you were not here?
How could I know I had something to fear?
Sumi cries and I with her
Miss your soft, plush, silky fur.
Precious chocolate face and eyes of blue
Now are only in our mem'ries true.
Your kidney disease we did fight
But it was not to be your end.
Mercy was granted to your life
A peaceful sleep God did send.
In the last days of summer's heat
Did you know your life was now complete?
Or did you just slip away, unaware
In the summer warmth of your favorite chair?
Have you found them, have you found them yet?
Mama (Love) Suki and Daddy (Warrier) Samauri,
Brothers Gumby, Sumo and Nephew Akai?
Have you found them, have you found them yet?
Have you seen the precious girls?
Dearest Abby and Cassie, precious seal and chocolate pearls.
Have you found them, have you found them yet?
Have you found the others too?
Icabod, Henry, Misty, and Peru.
Wait at the Bridge my dearest 'Boo' ...
Wait for me and all the rest ...
My life began on Jeff and Tammy's
wedding day -
I was the tall lanky chocolate point with my momma's soft, silky fur and my
daddy's plush thick coat. Like any Siamese I headed for the warmest place
to sleep, summer or winter. And sometimes that meant three of us in one
catbed. Brother Gumby and I got to stay with Momcat
and momma Suki and daddy Samauri.
Cancer took little Suki on
On May 11, 1998, I lost my dear little seal brother and life seemed like it would never be the same. Gumby always slept with me and washed my head. I missed him so much, I pulled out all the fur on the sides of my body and I didn't want to eat. Something was terribly wrong. We had to go to the vet to find out what it was. Why was Mom crying again? Kidney Disease? Just like Gumby? Mom said not to worry though. We would do things differently this time and I could stay with her lots longer than Gumby got to stay. I got new things to eat and boy were they good. I used to have to beg for raw chicken and raw liver and raw hamburger, but now I got it without asking. I also got lots of good canned food. Mom said no pills and none of those needle sticks with fluid going into me until I absolutely had to have them, either. That was all well and good and I felt some better, but I still missed Gumbo so much and his washing me that I still tried to groom too much and my fur came out in my mouth.
Then one day Mom went to work as usual, but came home a bit late and what did she bring, but a tiny little girl kitty that looked alot like my momma, Suki. Funny thing she thought I was her momma or maybe her daddy and we slept together the second night she was here and every day and night since too. The funny thing is I never overgroomed my fur after that at all and it grew back in soft and silky and creamy as when I was a youngster. Several years past and with each year I grew a bit older, but Sumi and now Ditto, who looks just like Gumby, have been taking good care of me, along with Mom too. This past 6 months, though, Mom has been a bit worried as I've lost weight again and am now under nine pounds. The vet said everything was fine in June, my creatinine was still in the 3's, so the kidney treatments were working, but I felt more tired than usual and Sumi had to go for her long walks and come back and report to me, because I was just too tired to walk too much. Also another wonderful thing happened, Mom is home all the time now, ever since summer started. She must have known that I love the summertime and the warm heat of the sun. She's home to let me in and out 40 times a day!! And to feed me that many times if I'm hungry....problem is I'm usually not very hungry. Food just doesn't taste or smell as good as it used to. I get anything I want and sometimes get to choose from many things, its just not the same though
Another good thing is with Mom home we get to sleep later, and she's not in a rush. I love to have my tummy rubbed and rubbed. She rubs it now every morning before we get out of bed and every night before we go to sleep. It feels soooo good. Then one hot day after my usual tummy rub and 2 breakfasts, Mom took the newspaper and sat down in the soft chair next to me on the patio. I climbed up on the table (her signal to lift me into her lap and rub my back good). After the good backrub, I laid back down into my chair to take a nap. Mom got up and went inside and thats the last time we saw each other in this life ;( In a little while I took a walk with Sumi up to the driveway and stayed there on the hot concrete for awhile and when I was tired of that I came back down to my favorite chair on the patio to sleep somemore...it was afternoon now....and thats all I remember......
I STOOD BY YOUR BED LAST NIGHT
Author Unknown
I stood by your bed last
night,
I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying,
You found it hard to sleep.
I cried to you so softly
As you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you,
I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."...
...And when the time is right for you
To cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you
And we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you,
There is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out ...
Then come home to be with me.
When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
When tomorrow starts without me
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through Heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you.
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.
"I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past.
"You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times
You did some things
You knew you shouldn't do.
"But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take my hand
And share my life with me."
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.
~By David M. Romano, 1993~
GOODBYE
SWEET BLUE EYES, SWEET BABY -- YOUR MOMMA AND DADDY AWAIT
YOU ARE IN MY HEART FOREVER
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Kat Karma and all my Old Friends
To My Little Brother Gumby's Memorial Page - He went before me to the Bridge on
May 11, 1998
To My Old Friend Ichabod's Memorial Page - He went before me to the Bridge
on July 6, 1998
To My Old Friend Henry's Memorial
Page - He went before me to the Bridge on October 9, 1998
To My Old Friend Nugget's Memorial
Page - He came after me to the Bridge on February 6, 2004
To My Old Friend Cletus' Memorial
Page - He came after me to the Bridge on October 26, 2006
To My Old Friend Yoube's Memorial
Page - He came after me to the Bridge on April 10, 2008