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December-26-07 181.5, same as last week. Given how much
time off I had this week, this is almost a pleasant surprise. I've decided to go for broke
and get very serious about losing weight again. I'm back to counting calories and logging my food.
I have a wedding to go to in California in June, and it will be the first time my family has
seen me since I moved to Missouri and started my new way of life. I already weigh about 90 lbs
less than the last time they saw me, but I want to *really* knock their socks off!
December-21-07 181.5, up 2.5 pounds from last week. Ya, It hasn't been a good season. Or year, really, since I've ended up pretty much where I started. At least I'm not regaining to my old weight. I guess I'll just try to make a fresh start of it when the new year rolls around. Again. December-13-07 179, up two pounds from last week. A sizeable bounce back from last week. I'm glad that I didn't bounce back into the 180's though! I've been having issues with the mindless eating at night thing that's been bringing me up lately. I really get the sense that my body doesn't want to be below 185 or so. But of course, if I let it have its way, then it will decide it wants to be above 200 again. Sometimes this feels like a losing battle, but I'd rather fight it than give up. December-06-07 177, down 3.5 pounds from last week. Ah, that's more like it. Being in the 180's is so demoralizing to me these days. It sets off the old "What if I gain back *all* the weight" sirens in my head. I just cannot let that happen. A slight backsliding is ok. At least I was aware of it, didn't go into denial about it, and took steps to stop it in its tracks. As long as I can do these three things, I know I'll never go back to the bad, superbig old me. November-29-07 180.5, down 2 pounds from last week. Well, after the record gain of last week I was hoping for a record loss this week to counter it, but I suppose this will have to do. Now that things are back to normal after the holiday, I'm still having a much easier time sticking to a sensible eating plan. I know it sounds weird saying this when I'm back in the 180's for the second week running, but I really feel like my plateau is over. I'll be breaking back into the 170's next week, and see more and more losses and fewer and fewer gains (though X-mas might be bumpy! Hmmm, it seems that I screwed up the date for my last entry. Darned Thanksgiving coma! November-27-07 182.5, up 5.5 from last week. Wow, I think that might be a record of some kind. I take comfort in knowing that it is doubtful I could have eating enough to gain five pounds of fat during this time. I'll just ride this week through, and then get back on track. At least when I do follow my new plan, I do feel much more in control than I did before. This will pass and reverse. November-15-07 177, down 3 pounds from last week. Part is losing my bloatage, but I do believe that my new way of doing things is helping also. Since I have begun to settle into my new routine, I've been having a much easier time staying on track. I'm still kinda hungry throughout the day, but not starving by the time I come home. Next week is kinda dicey because of Thanksgiving, but in the long run, I think that I am back on track and going to see more and more losses in the coming weeks or months. November-09-07 180, up one pound from last week. Ugh. I was hoping to never see the 180's again in my life. It's my own fault for going overboard with the eating so much last month. Maybe some part of my brain thinks my body needs to fatten up for winter! I just have to make sure the sane parts of brain at the ones I use when I start reaching for things to cram into my mouth. November-02-07 179, up 1 pound from last week. Been a weeks of ups and down. Got as low as 176.5. My eating has been screwy for the past couple of days due to time off from work. Next week will be more normal. October-25-07 178, same as last week. Would have preferred a loss, of course, but good not to have to report a 3 week gaining trend. I feel that I'm still eating too much at night. It simply has been my habit for so long that it's hard to change. But I did do better this week than last. Next week I only work 3 days, so hopefully things won't get too bad then. My pants feel too tight! October-18-07 178, up two pounds from last week. Well, been trying to shake my plateau by changing my eating patterns. Obviously, I still need to work on tweaking it. But, I'm not throwing in the towel on this yet. I just need to learn how to be successful in changing my habits, and that might take a little while. Hoping for a better report next week! October-11-07 176, same as last week. Well, I've been hesitant to change my way of eating since I have lost and maintained an 80 pound weight loss, but my struggles with this long plateau have convinced me that I needed a change. I'm upping my calories during the day, and lowering them at night. I'm hoping this brings a change in the coming weeks, once I adjust to the new way of doing things. October-04-07 176, up 1.5 pounds from last week. Not surprising. I've been eating my normal amount during the day, but I am starving by the time I get home from work. And I especially am craving salty foods. I'm downing popcorn and fat free tortilla chips like crazy. Maybe I really am crazy, I dunno. Well, perhaps next week I'll be more in control. September-27-07 174.5, down two pounds from last week. Which is a heck of a lot better than the 2.5 gain from last week, of course, but I was hoping that all of that gain would go away. I know that I haven't been in the 170's nearly as long as I was in the 180's, but I'm already incredibly sick of them. Stuck to good eating habits pretty much all week, and will hopefully have the willpower to do so next week as well. I'll bust through this. September-20-07 176.5, up 2.5 pounds from last week. I'm disappointed with myself over this, of course. I had another 4 day weekend, and I had several failures of willpower over the full week. I need to get back on track. I do NOT want to be in the 170's for months and months. I need to grow up and do what I need to do next week. September-15-07 174, down 1 pound from last week. I actually had a hard time picking what I would say my weight is. I have today off and slept late, and as usual this gave me a lower weight; 173 to be exact. But I woke up at my usual time to use the bathroom, and weighed myself then. I decided to use that number since I happened to know it. Whichever, I'm glad to see it since I had a bad encounter involving a loss of willpower and a large domino's supreme pizza last weekend. Man, I really want to get into the low 70's so I can confidently say "I am no longer obese". September-06-07 175, up .5 pounds from last week. Not that bad a set back. Not as good as maintaining or losing, of course, but not the 3 pound gain that I've been seeing some weeks. I know what the problem is, I've just been eating too much food to lose. A nibble of crackers here, a handful of grapes there, a few dates in the middle of the night. Not unhealthy food, just too much of it. I know what I have do to succeed, and I need to summon the willpower to do it. August-30-07 174.5, same as last week. Well, I was very good all week, and was down to 173 as of yesterday, but then had a mystery gain last night. I did eat a fairly high sodium dinner, so perhaps that is the reason. But despite staying the same this morning, I feel like I've made progress this week. Going on a four day weekend tomorrow, hopeful I'll be able to keep it somewhat together. August-23-07 174.5, down 3 pounds from last week. Hey, I broke 175, and this is *not* an artificially low weigh in. And last week, I bought some new pants for work. They are sized 12, while the old ones were sized 12/14, and made from a very stretchy material. These aren't, and are smaller with much less give. They actually hold in my belly a bit, making me look thinner. And I can actually wear them comfortably. This has been a very good week. August-16-07 177.5, down 1.5 pounds from last week. A respectable loss, but still I'm disappointed with last week's crash. Some part of my brain seem to be unaccepting of the fact that I should still be losing weight. I go through phases where it seems like my will power has been literately switched off like a light switch. Ah well, at least the battle went well this week. August-10-07 179, up 3.5 pounds from last week. Well, I was expecting a gain, but wow. I didn't spend the entirety of last week just pigging out the whole time. There were a few days that I ate what I wanted, when I wanted. I didn't think it was enough to lead to a 3 pound gain, though. Well, I guess it shows that I really need to be more careful now that I'm at a lower weight. August-02-07 175.5, down two pounds from last week. Better, better. Still not losing as fast as I'd like to be overall, of course, but anything is better than steadily regaining. I do go on vacation this week, and have a family reunion where I'm not planning on having a lo-cal meal, plus hubby and I have a couple of dinner dates in mind. Next week might show it. But that's ok if it, I'll get back on track afterwards. July-27-07 177.5, up 3.5 pounds from last week. A combination of a low weight last time, usual bloating, and a fairly disastrous failure of will power over the weekend. I know it will be better next week, but I'm not thrilled with myself now. July-20-07 174, down 2.5 pounds from last week. Another artificially low weight, since no work today so I slept way in. But, my "fake" low weigh ins are getting lower, I have to think this means I am actually losing a little. Given that I have a four day weekend I don't know if I'll hold on to this weight next week, but this is my first "official" weigh in where I was below 175, and thusly lower than a 30 BMI. And that means.... NOT OBESE! I know that this trend will continue, even if I have ups and downs along the way. July-12-07 176.5, up .5 pounds from last week. I'm actually kinda relieved at this, given how sick I had been, I thought most of my previous weight loss had been just water. I definitely do not want to get into the 180 territory again! July-05-07 176, down 4 pounds since last week. Hey, I've found a great way to lose weight even while on vacation. It's called "Being sick as a dog to the point where you think about going to a doctor!" So, for the last four days I've had a sore tummy, pretty severe diarrhea, and really not much ability to eat much at all. I'm feeling much better now, though. Onward to next week! June-28-07 180, up 3 pounds from last week. Ugh. Just ugh. I'm going to blame this on my monthly, but something strange is going on with that. For the past two months, it's been coming around about three days early. Maybe I'm getting ready to go through the change, which is messing up my body rhythms? I dunno, but I gotta get this under control. But... the factory is closed next week, and I'm going to be off nine days in a row. This might be a rough period for me, but I'm not going to give up regardless of what is happening. June-21-07 177, up two pounds from last week. Not real happy about this, of course. Well, at least I know I'm fairly healthy. I had a doctor's appointment last week, and everything looks fine. My blood cholesterol level was something like 133, tryglicerides were 80. Apparently that's just fabulous. They told me to keep exercising. Ok then! My thyroid was a bit low, so maybe that could be an issue. Oh, I hope I get to blame my current stall on my thyroid! June-15-07 175, down 2.5 pounds from last week. This is an artificially low weight, since I didn't work today and slept in much later than usual. But even without that, I was down about a pound yesterday, so I believe I've had some real loss. But I'm on a 4 day mini vacation now. Let's see how good I do next week. June-07-07 177.5, down 1.5 pounds from last week. Ok, but I was hoping to get back to my weight of two weeks ago. I suppose I should be happy I didn't gain or stay the same. I'm going to try to focus on my weekend eating. Drink lots of tea instead of doing mindless munching! May-31-07 179, up 2.5 pounds from last week. A combination of my cycle and a three day weekend did me in. I've been ravenous all week long. I think that some part of my mind just can't accept that I can get to the "not obese" category, or perhaps its just the more primitive part of my brain is triggered into thinking that I am indeed starving as I get closer to that point. Well, at least I can have a bad week now and still be below 180. May-24-07 176.5, down half a pound from last week. Not that much, but it gets me that much further away from 180 land, and I was soooo sick of that place. Going to have to make it through a 3 day weekend before next weigh in. Hopefully I won't lose too much ground! May-17-07 177, down 1.5 pounds from last week. Hey, wattaya know, eating less really did lead to a weight loss for me. I was very good all week, even forgoing eating Free Pizza Night at work. I had kinda of a crisis of hope last weekend, wondering if I was even successful or capable of reaching goal due to being near 180 for so long. Several smart and nice people assured me that I'm indeed far enough along to be successful even if I don't lose more weight. But the thing is, I'm still just not happy with my body. And I know that I know what to do to lose weight. It's just about choosing to do so, even when it's hard and I also want to stuff my face. So now, I choose to lose weight again, and get back on track. May-10-07 178.5, same as last week. Well, better than having another gain, but I really was expecting a loss this week. I am getting so very tired of flirting with the 180's. I knew my weight loss would slow as I approached goal, but I didn't expect this degree of a stall out. This coming week I'm going to sharply monitor calories, make a commitment to stick to a lower calorie plan. I know I can bust through this! ,May-03-07 178.5, up .5 pounds from last week. Not great, but better than the four pound gains I've been seeing lately. It's a bit discouraging to see that I'm exactly where I was at the beginning of March. I don't know why I seem to be having such problems with the 170's. Maybe it's purely mental, or maybe my body thinks I'm trying to starve it to death! Well, whatever, I'm not giving up. April-26-07 178, down .5 pounds from last week. A pleasant surprise, given that I had a fairly disastrous weekend that included encounters with fried chicken and an overly large sundae made with cookie dough ice cream, waffle cone pieces and chocolate syrup. It was pretty yum. Man, I remember when I ate that way pretty much all the time. Well, it's okay to do that once in a while, but I really like it when I can report that I'm a bit closer to goal. April-19-07 178.5, down 2.5 pounds from last week. And the roller coaster continues. I wonder if I'll be fluctuating this much when I finally get to goal? I dunno, it just feels that my body (of the part of my brain that is afraid that I'll end up starving to death) is really resisting this whole getting/staying into the 170's thing. And it does have considerable pull. But at the end of the day, the conscious me is the one that decides what to put in my mouth. April-12-07 181, down .5 from last week. Kinda a bummer, since I was hoping that I'd be down into the 170's again. I just need to focus on what I'm doing on my days off and turn this around. At least this isn't a disaster. In the bad old days, I might have been so discouraged by this sort of thing that I would just give up and go back to my old way of eating. But that simply isn't going to happen now. I just have no urge to do that, and that itself is a victory. April-05-07 181.5, up four pounds from last week. An unfortunate combination of a slightly out of control 4 day weekend, and my usual timing bloat. Pretty disappointing, but I won't get too upset unless most of it doesn't go away next week. March-30-07 177.5, down two pounds from last week. Up and down, up and down, but still in a generally downward direction, so I am happy. This is a bit of challenging few weeks for me. Things have been very slow at work, and they've been giving us voluntary days off. I've been taking them since I can basically afford to, and I hope it will help stem off a mandatory lay off. I'm a four day week-end now. I just hope I don't end up losing ground during this time! March-23-07 179.5, up four pounds since last week. My biggest one week gain since I started. I had a feeling that last week's weight was not really real, but I wasn't expecting this big of a bounce back. I'm not feeling real talkitive about this now. March-16-07 175.5, down 3.5 pounds from last week. Certainly a surprise, even with my expected bloat loss. I do have today off, so I weighed later than usual, which might be giving a false low reading. Whatever the cause, it's certainly nice to see! But I won't be devastated if I don't keep this all new low next week. March-08-07 179, up .5 pounds from last week. Actually a relief, since I was around 182 most of the week. This is the time for me to be having weird fluctuations, so not too concerned at all. My new weight lifting routine has gone well since the new year; I just added another 5 pounds to all my lifts. I'm glad I found a tactic that works with my mentality for making this a new habit. I think I can actually feel the muscles in my arms getting a bit harder! March-01-07 178.5, down 1 pound from last week. Four weeks in a row with a loss, and a new low. Why can't I always do this? I know I've made a lot of progress, but it's still frustrating to me to know that I weigh as much as normal sized man. Ah well, I'm being negative. It has been a good month, and I am happy with my progress. February-22-07 179.5, down half a pound from last week. Finally! I was stuck at 180 all week, but did have the drop last night. But I'm anxious about next week. I really, *really* don't want to be in the 180's anymore. I'm just sick and tired of them. Plus, at 174.5 I reach an important milestone: my BMI goes from the "obese" catagory to the "overweight" one. Man, I can't wait for that to happen! February-15-07 180, down two pounds from last week. Well, finally a new low. But still in the 180's. Man, am I tired of this range! I really hope I don't choose to drop the ball, and have a new second digit to type in next week. February-08-7 182, down half a pound from last week. Sigh. I was doing so well at the begining of week, starting off at 181. Then a mystery surge just before weigh in day. Man, I hate when that happens. But it will all even out eventually. February-01-07 182.5, same as last week. Given the damage I did last weekend, this is sorta a relief. But man, I really would like to be in the 170's finally! January-26-07 182.5, up 2 pounds from last week. Well, not good, but not that surprising as well. I kinda took the week off, more or less, due to my 20th anniversary plans. Next week things get back to normal and will stay that way for a while. I'll be back on track. January-18-07 180.5, down 2.5 pound from last week. I love it when water weight goes away. Also, I've been keeping my resolution of doing at least 10 lifting reps a week. Instead of trying to get into the habit of doing them at a certain time, I put a sheet of paper near my gym and mark off when I do them. I can do them anytime. I blow them off, I do all ten on Sunday. That hasn't happened yet! I think this will be a good method for me to use. January-12-07 183, holding steady for about the last two weeks. The holidays are over, and I just got my new computer. Life should be settling in to a steady routine again for at least a while. Well, I am taking a couple of days off at the end of the month to celebrate my 20th anniversary, and we are going to go out to eat a couple of times. I don't think I'll be worrying about my diet too much then. But that's only 2 days, and then everything is back to normal for months. 170's, here I come!
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