SUICIDE

it's no joke

 If you are thinking about suicide right now, you may want to visit this web page     (http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/),   or  call 1-800-SUICIDE   (1-800-784-2433)  if you are in the United States.

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ASK YOURSELF THESE QUESTIONS......

1) Can you really say that life is going to be this terrible forever? NO! You can't decide at 16, 18, 21, 34 that life isn't worth living. You can't decide at 63 that life isn't worth living. Life is what you make of it, don't just give up. Never give up.

2) Think of the people you'll leave behind. Think of the people who actually care. Think of the people who try every day to make you happy, think how horrible they'll feel. Oh, you won't be able to care, you'll be too DEAD to notice. Why would you WANT to inflict the sense of guilt and failure on anybody...Isn't that part of what drove you to ending it anyway?  You may think that you are doing them a favor, but you are NOT!!!  They will hold that guilt inside and it will ruin their life more than it would if you stayed alive!

FEEL LIKE YOU WOULDN'T LEAVE ANYONE BEHIND?  You will.  Everyone has touched someone's life in a positive way.  Whether it was just a smile, or a joke, or listening to them when they were down, or being born!!!  Don't ever feel like you won't be missed.  That was a misconception I always thought.  I thought that my family and friends would be better off without me.  Sometimes I still feel that way, but I have to stop that thinking and realize that they would be hurt tremendously if I took my own life.  They would have the guilt that they could have done something more.  Think about these people in your life, don't leave them to suffer more pain!

3) Life will get better Always. Bad things happen to everyone, some more than others.  But remember that there are many others dealing with the same situations- whether it is relationship problems, depression, abuse, rape, feelings of hopelessness, and anything else you can think of. Some people deal at the time, sweep it under the rug until there is nowhere left to sweep it.  But even when you're at the bottom of that deep, dark pit, you can get back up.  It may seem hopeless, but you can do it!!!  I have faith in you!!


4) Why do you want to die? Seriously, why? Is it a cry for help? Then go to your doctor or write someone you trust and want help from a letter explaining how you feel. You don't have to tell anyone you cut or burn and hate yourself if you don't want to.

Is it to get back at the people who hurt you? You can't get revenge on anyone from the grave. It is far more satisfying and positive to take revenge in some other way. 

Is it because you can't cope with the pain anymore? Then go to the doctor and get yourself something to HELP. No, meds aren't for everyone, neither is counseling, but depression is medical it's not something that can easily be controlled from within. Seeking medical help does not make you weak, when you are on the verge of death because you don't feel you can cope. Doctor's will not always look at you strangely. Psychiatrists, CPNs, counselors and psychologists see people just like you every week. You are not an anomaly.


5) Is it worth it? I mean, imagine if it doesn't work and you have to cope with everyone asking if you're OK for the next 5 years. Or your parents hiding up all the tablets and razors in the house, so you can't even get some medication for a HEADACHE. Then there's suicide counseling, lasting scars, the possibility of long term liver/kidney damage. The possibility of brain damage. Did you know you could go into a vegetative state if you overdose? Many people I have known (myself included) who have attempted, or started to kill themselves have regretted it deeply afterwards.


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Just think about it. There's so much to gain through living even when you've got nothing to lose.
And if you're wondering about my own experience, I have tried to kill myself three times now and had to go to the Emergency room experience.  I was very close to dying and I continued to try to end my life.  Now I do not even want to think about what would have happened if no one took me to the ER and I died.  Even though life has been extremely painful, good stuff has come out of it!!!!
It takes guts to face your problems, courage you may have forgotten you have. Death may seem the easy way out, the ONLY way out, but it's not. Death comes to us all in the end, why rush it?
Stay alive.