Lyrics from Courtesan

 

The Thistle In The Kiss

Your kiss
is as, you would imagine is,
soft as flower petals
cold as razor blades

Your kiss
when you press your lips
it peels the wrist from my skin
it turns my outsides in

how can I hope to resist
how do I without it exist
days and nights and dreams
are sacrificed to just this
oh, how I miss

Your kiss
is so delicious
still as April twilight
white as arsenic

Your kiss
when you close your eyes
it forces tighter mine
it hollows me inside

Your kiss
in so deliberate
shards and slivers
is breaking in tiny pieces, me

bit by bit         (so sad)   so fragile me
piece by piece (so sad)   so brittle me
kiss by kiss     (so sad)   so empty me
bit by bit         (so sad)   in tiny pieces me

Your kiss
is so irresistible
so very serious
a calculated risk

Your kiss
your mouth, your lips
with such precision tearing
in tiny pieces, me

how do I hope to resist
how do I without it exist
days and nights and dreams
are sacrificed to just this
oh, how I miss

When I'm Broken

A wilting rose
The dying day
My darkest hour
Thunder and rain

A candle glows
Lighting my way
Lament and mourn
Cry out in vain (X2)

Red by night, black by day
A bleeding heart, a child at play
A spider's web, the gilded cage
In shady gloom, the silent rage

When I'm lonely
And I keep the world at bay
With you only
I can wish it all away
And when I'm broken
Don't put me on a shelf
Or cast adrift
Please don't leave me by myself

Am I asleep, is this a dream?
Or is it real, just as it seems
I can't believe, how can it be?
When I don't bleed, when I can't scream

Scarce are made
A garden gray
Reeds and stalks
Stone and clay

The winter wind
Whispers my name
Then echoing
Cries out in vain (X2)

Seasons of mist, the morning dew
The midnight storm and thoughts of you
The barren fields, thickets and thorn
Bristles my skin, bruises my soul

When I'm lonely
And I keep the world at bay
With you only
I can wish it all away
And when I'm broken
Don't put me on a shelf
Or cast adrift
Please don't leave me by myself

Am I asleep, is this a dream?
Or is it real, just as it seems
I can't believe, how can it be?
When I don't bleed, when I can't scream

 

I Wear Your Ring

In the empire of the one-eyed King
behind iron gates of sleep
beyond the reach
of all loss and longing
of all my suffering

In the kingdom of the melancholy
I keen for thee this melody
waiting for your 
bell to call me
for you to summon me

Keeper of dreams
I wear your ring
with quiet tears I emplore thee
it is with you I long to be

In the empire of the one-eyed King
behind the veils of tears I weep
beneath the swell 
of voices singing
of voices yearning

In the sorrow of his majesty
I pray upon my rosary
wishing for your 
arms around me
for you to comfort me

Keeper of dreams
I wear your ring
with quiet tears I emplore thee
it is with you I long to be

 

Breathing Farewell's Sigh

Tender twilight
a little like July
drifting idly by
grey clouds smear the sky
there is rain inside of my lullaby
telling me not to cry
breathing farewell's sigh
kissing me good-bye
the raindrops falling from on-high
as the grief streams from my eyes
the tears they crystalize

Why can't I 
leave it all behind
it's forever on my mind
will this be the last time?

Darker, dire
is it despair or desire
taking all that is mine
Love is in disguise
hiding in your smile
if only you or I...
Is their nothing left to try?
Is their never knowing why?
I am terrified
raindrops falling from on-high
there is rain inside of my lullaby
kissing me good-bye

Why can't I
leave it all behind?
it's forever on my mind
will this be the last time?

 

Floatful & Remembering
(the scarlet hours I was a rose)

Will you still notice me
When I close myself down
With my leaves wilting
With my petals brown, again

Will you still
Will you, please
Don't look away
Don't walk passed
Don't walk passed

When I call out
When I am shivering-sad
When I am broken-hearted
Will you hold my hand?

When I wander
When I lose my way
When I falter
Will you still be there?

When I feel as I do
Will you feel the same?

Will you still see me
When all around
The rushes grow green
And the blossoms are crowned?

Will you still
Will you, please
Don't look away
Don't walk passed
Don't walk passed

When I go too far
When I pull away
When I break a promise
Will you understand?

When the day is long
When the twilight shines
When the night is over
Will you still be mine?

When I feel as I do
Will you feel the same?

 

Frost at Midnight

When you're with me
 I feel alone
A candle burning
Against the sun

I try to pull away
To try and reclaim
My indentity 
My own name

So cold
When you are near
If only we never…

An icicle in December
So cold, so cold

The plume or the feather
The promise or lie
The bramble or heather
The do or die

I'm lost to you
But I'm found where
The horizon meets the sky

I lived for you
But I'm bound
To let those feelings die

So cold
You must be near

Not to feel
Anything
Or just to feel
Something at all

Since you've gone away
I still feel the same
With no one to hurt
No one to blame

So cold
Without you here
Why didn't we ever…

An icicle in December
So cold, so cold

 

Baby Blue

As I gaze
I can't decide
The calming waves
The tender tide
Cool and blue the water
Round and blue the sky
To which do we aspire?
Should we swim,
Or should we fly (x2)
We'll let your kiss
For us decide

Should we ride
The butterfly
Stirring in the breeze
Or drink the tears
The seahorse cries
Softly from her cheeks

Dare we climb
Or merely cry

No promises
No wrong or right
On borrowed wings
Of falcon flight
Close and cold the waves
The sky so for and wide
From what is it we hide
Should we swim
Or should we fly (x2)
We'll let your kiss
For us decide

Should we ride
The butterfly
Stirring in the breeze
Or drink the tears
The seahorse cries
Softly from her cheeks

Dare we climb
Or merely cry

 

Cuts Through The Skin
(Down To The Bone)

am I flesh
and am I bone
or am I made
of only sorrow

ashes in the dust
so long alone
exiled in my cage
like water in a stone

cuts through the skin
down to the bone
all of my days they are trances
all of my nights are but dreams
all that you see and believe
all that you whisper I scream

the fires glow
burning cold
too hot to hold
still I can't let go

the darkness grows
swelling slow
showing me the way
taking me home

cuts through the skin
down to the bone
all of my days they are trances
all of my nights are but dreams
all that you see and believe
all that you whisper I scream

 

In Spite Of Everything

Anguish is near
so close with me here
and I’ve nowhere to run
and nowhere to hide
so just let me lie
here by your side

But before I sleep
before I escape
please heed my demand
and just hold my hand

Just for awhile
I hope you don’t mind
but I've nowhere to go
and I can’t decide
so paint me a smile
as I close my eyes

But before I sleep
take leave of my grief
so just one last time
I’ll take what is mine

With my so-called scars
and their so-cold hearts
with eyes staring blankly
and feeling far away
just long enough
to keep the wolves at bay

 

Inside The Dream

Ici le jardin
ici les ombres
lignes de fleurs bleus
la lune et Zephyrus
ici vous me trouverez
Mon jardin secret
Mon jardin secret
Mon jardin secret
je garde mes secrets toujours

Mon jardin
j'arrosais en larmes
la lune j'ai accroche
d'une ficelle
astucieusement
faisait expressement pour
tes yeux aveugles
Mon jardin secret
Mon jardin secret
Mon jardin secret
je garde mes secrets toujours

chaque petale (tous a vous)
chaque feuille
chaque aube
de chaque journee

chaque bourgeon
chaque floraison
chaque crepescule
de chaque soiree
tous les cieux
je brossais
pour vous
et tous les nuages
dans tous les cieux
de chaque jour
je les accrocahis pour vous

Meme en hiver
mon jardin verdant
croit mur et bel
rien sans raison
et tout ebauchaient
si soigneusement pour vous

 

 

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