Here's my journal. I have no idea what is going to go here or anything, so don't be suprised if it turns out to be something else. Livejournal is for girls.

29 January 2005
Life is pretty surreal. Crap is shifting around and generally bizaare things are going on. I'm working on pasting things back together, but who knows. Ideally, I'd like everything to be cool again. Time will tell I guess. It always does. Insane season winter is...

17 December 2004
I'm completely retarded for Depeche Mode. I'm finally starting to like their newest album, Exciter. (I'm usually about five years behind when it comes to digging their newer stuff. Its a lot more like the older Depeche Mode stuff. Lots of samples and not a whole lot of guitar work. Anyway, one thing you can always expect is really good lyrics and the majority of Exciter just doesn't cut it.

One of their old songs, See You, has awesome lyrics. Personal Jesus. All these little random boarderline psychotic maniacal love songs.

13 December 2004
How many of you have actually eaten raw meat before? That's what I thought. Depressing.

Steak Tartar is without a doubt one of the strangest things I have ever eaten. It's basically a pile of finely chopped sirloin surrounded by various mixers like onions, egg yolk, anchovies, anything. So you take some of the meat and throw it on your plate and add some random selection of mixers and smash it with your fork until it is uniform. Then you eat it.

I'll generally eat just about anything the Poles put in front of me, but this is stretching it. My first forkload of tartar wasn't bad, but like all Polish food, has a strange consistency. I had a little more and decided I was done.

This is the exact same way I feel about the holidays. Weird crap always happens. Evill starts running around jibjabbering about Crazy Taxi (a lie) and I genuinely feel like being nice to a few people. Not nice like you're thinking nice like I actually want to see other people happy, drunk and rolling around like mental patients on the floor.

Something has happened in my advanced age where I like to see people unwrap presents and drool with glee. It makes me want to buy people more presents, just so they can go wild, ripping paper into shreads and hopefully laughing at a silly t-shirt I bought them. Maybe it was living with a kid for awhile.

Anyway, this all reminds me of a chat X-Ray and I had about socks. Socks are something you are always one short of and have far too many of. You can't actually have an even number of socks for more than a month. I used to theorize that my dad inhaled socks in his sleep. Throwing away socks is also futile. The minute they hit the trash, three more randomly show up in your sock drawer.

I actually have a pile of socks that are stretched from being washed a million times that I can't wear anymore. I'm scared about throwing them away. You never know when you need an extra sock to gag someone with or to patch a hole in a boat with. You just never know.

My final comment will be about how awesome Jigglypuff is. Especially as a Super Smash Bros. Melee character. I have a sinking feeling that everyone I play with will now single me out and kill me when I choose the blue-bowed Jigglypuff and start smashing away. Playing SSBM is the ultimate way to brighten up your holidays with trash talking your friends and cheap kills. Everyone loves SSBM. Everyone.

01 December 2004
Sometime last night my grandmother went into intensive care. She gets pneumonia and bronchitis pretty often, but I'm not sure it has ever been this bad. Hopefully, she'll pull through for obvious reasons.

Today is also the day a bunch of years ago I first made out with a girl. Yeah, who am I kidding right? It was last month. Geeks, like pilots, get no booty. Or something. The first line is really true.

Update: The grandmother is good. Doing better than anyone figured.

22 October 2004
So work is being kind enough to allow me to steal a ancient Data General Server. This thing is massive. It's pretty solid steel. The two side panels weigh about 15 pounds each. Get your quad-processor Pentium Pro 200s here with a Gig of RAM.

It used to be called "THEBEAST." My new name for it is STEAKHOUSE.

So far, I've ripped out 2 SCSI cards and a winmodem. For some reason, Data General told my company they needed a seperate SCSI card for each device they added. Full size cards are cool and everything, but 2 of them is too much.

19 October 2004
Buzzwords from 1904 to 2004. The Harvard grad skank who wrote this needs to change 1999's entry to "empowered" as I heard that every 15 minutes back then.

1. 1904 hip
2. 1905 whizzo
3. 1906 teddy bear
4. 1907 egghead
5. 1908 realpolitik
6. 1909 tiddly-om-pom-pom
7. 1910 sacred cow
8. 1911 gene
9. 1912 blues
10. 1913 celeb
11. 1914 cheerio
12. 1915 civvy street
13. 1916 U-boat
14. 1917 tailspin
15. 1918 ceasefire
16. 1919 ad-lib
17. 1920 demob
18. 1921 pop
19. 1922 wizard
20. 1923 hem-line
21. 1924 lumpenproletariat
22. 1925 avant garde
23. 1926 kitsch
24. 1927 sudden death
25. 1928 Big Apple
26. 1929 sex
27. 1930 drive-in
28. 1931 Mickey Mouse
29. 1932 bagel
30. 1933 dumb down
31. 1934 pesticide
32. 1935 racism
33. 1936 spliff
34. 1937 dunk
35. 1938 cheeseburger
36. 1939 Blitzkrieg
37. 1940 Molotov cocktail
38. 1941 snafu
39. 1942 buzz
40. 1943 pissed off
41. 1944 DNA
42. 1945 mobile phone
43. 1946 megabucks
44. 1947 Wonderbra
45. 1948 cool
46. 1949 Big Brother
47. 1950 brainwashing
48. 1951 fast food
49. 1952 Generation X
50. 1953 hippy
51. 1954 non-U
52. 1955 boogie
53. 1956 sexy
54. 1957 psychedelic
55. 1958 beatnik
56. 1959 cruise missile
57. 1960 cyborg
58. 1961 awesome
59. 1962 bossa nova
60. 1963 peacenik
61. 1964 byte
62. 1965 miniskirt
63. 1966 acid
64. 1967 love-in
65. 1968 It-girl
66. 1969 microchip
67. 1970 hypermarket
68. 1971 green
69. 1972 Watergate
70. 1973 F-word
71. 1974 punk
72. 1975 detox
73. 1976 Trekkie
74. 1977 naff all
75. 1978 trainers
76. 1979 karaoke
77. 1980 power dressing
78. 1981 toyboy
79. 1982 hip-hop
80. 1983 beatbox
81. 1984 double-click
82. 1985 OK yah
83. 1986 mobile
84. 1987 virtual reality
85. 1988 gangsta
86. 1989 latte
87. 1990 applet
88. 1991 hot-desking
89. 1992 URL
90. 1993 having it large
91. 1994 Botox
92. 1995 kitten heels
93. 1996 ghetto fabulous
94. 1997 dot-commer
95. 1998 text message
96. 1999 Google
97. 2000 bling bling
98. 2001 9/11
99. 2002 axis of evil
100. 2003 sex up
101. 2004 chav

15 October 2004
Yesterday was the best day at work I have had in about two years. Seriously.

1 October 2004
Quite possibly the best picture of me ever taken.

23 September 2004
Listened to Green Jelly/Jello last night on my way home. I'm pretty sure Rock-N-Roll Pumpkhin is one if the best songs ever played by any band ever. It only has two lines, but whatever. You suck go read evillmonkey.

20 September 2004
A piddly one hundred dollars of cigars. Check it.

10 September 2004
Arizona rocks harder than whatever. I must say I had a great time visiting Lt. Bitcho-rama and his pimptastic F-16. Here is a quick synopsis of the long weekend. Thursday. In-N-Out Burger, sleep. Friday. Take pictures, chill by the pool, take over Luke AFB, eat Mexican food, rage at McDuffy's, pass out at 4AM Arizona time. Saturday. Bitch wakes up drunk, go to Carl's Jr. for drunk food, drive to Tuscon, visit PIMA, watch the Boarder Patrol arrest people, eat steak, watch Eurotrip, sleep. Sunday. Get breakfast, drive to the middle of nowhere and hike around, hit up the Macaroni Grill, drive to Tempe, watch some kids play Beastie Boys on piano, rage. Monday we went home.

I'm looking forward to rocking the house in AZ again.

31 August 2004
49 hours from now, I'll be packing my bags for Arizona where a few things are assured to happen. One is sex with a cactus. The other is being drunk. I think I have the order reversed.

I quit biting my nails. This has to be worse than quitting smoking.

18 August 2004

It's Evolution, BABY!

17 August 2004
Yeah, I think I'm broken. My head just isn't working right. I really don't care about anything right now. Not angry, not sad, just mentally flatlined. I have a feeling I'm going to be pissed after this weekend, because I'll have had no rest at all. Stagecrew is pretty fun, but there is a limit to working Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I sort of understand why DoubleJ is tired during the week. He's going from 7 AM to at least 11 PM. Heh, that's going to last a whole week for me and be bad enough.

The rocking news is, I'm gonna pick up some guitar action tomorrow. I figure it's better than picking up another bad habit, as is usual for me after relationships. I considered buying a punching bag, but sided with something creative. I figure jamming while watching some cartoons will be pretty fun and seems pretty fitting. Sort of like dedicating my guitar career to Glen, who after years of owning a guitar, never played a tune for more than about 35 seconds.

16 August 2004
Pretty full weekend here. Made beer and hung out with DoubleJ Friday. Saturday was New Hampshire and sitting around the Hampton's with cousin and having some beers. Sunday was moving the play to Charlton and helping setup with some AVP action afterwards.

It's great to hang with cousin. We had some good talks about drugs and drug culture, which I know nothing about. It was insanely enlightening. He explained to me that in any given social circle, at least one person is or knows someone who deals or grows pot. So you buy from them, until one day they don't have anything, so they give you the name of someone else and you just network. Weird.

I also heard the best quote ever about acid. "The little guys who run your brain just stop and start throwing out all the clutter."

13 August 2004
Yeah. Well, I'm single again. Yeah. I can't really say anything about the whole mess, because, well, I still in sort of disbelief or whatever. Everytime I've split up with a girl, I get pissed off or some other stupid emotion. I didn't this time.

While it would be nice to be friends with Carol after this, I really doubt I can do that. Seeing someone you care about with someone else is, more or less, the worst thing ever.

Being an obvious asshole, I'll try and take all this in some drunken, stupid, positive light. Good things that this enables me to do. Work at the theater. Be with friends more. Do nothing more. Pretty bland? I thought so too.

That about wraps all this shit up. Might as well talk about something that is going to awesome. Arizona. Evillmonkey, DoubleJ and I are going to visit Bitch in the desert and do much fun. Much debauchery is probably imminent. Since, I'm probably going to forget who I am for those few days and turn into some gelatinous, alcohol guzzling demon with fistfuls of cash, screaming at girls to rub their tits in people's faces for $20. Might as well get arrested while I'm down there.

Be prepared for insane pictures, coming soon, to the site with no graphics.

28 July 2004
Last night on my way home, I found a cop on the side of the road (Millbury St.) trying to pull a tree out of the street. I stopped flipped on the hazards and unbuckled my seatbeat. Snap! The cop fell down as the bramch he was pulling on snapped. I hopped out of the car and walked over.

Me: You alright?
Cop: Eh?
Me: You need a hand with that?
Cop: What?
Me: Do you need a hand with that?
Cop: The Highway Department should be here in a minute, I just radioed them.
Cop: You saw me fall down?
Me: Yeah, that's why I came over.

This guy seemed suprised as hell that I actually got out of my car and asked if I could help. Maybe it was that I wasn't talking to him like he was a cop. If the tree wasn't down he probably would have been ticketing me for doing 60 in a 35 moments earlier. Ah well, he seemed like a pretty nice guy.

23 July 2004
Remember last Friday's entry? Five work days of nothing. You can tack another five of nothing onto that, for a total of 10 whooping days of zero. Other than that, I just got a great announcement from the Newark, NJ branch...

DUE TO "FUMES" IN THE AREA - The NEWARK FIRE DEPARTMENT IS EVACUATING ALL BUSINESSES IN THE AREA. THEY WILL BE SHUT DOWN TEMPORARILY.

16 July 2004
It's a real good thing today is Friday. I've had nothing to do at work for 5 days. Friggen nothing besides maybe 6 phone calls for lame problems every day. I could really be doing this from home.

I had a dream about bringing a bunch of rolled quarters to the bank. The teller took them and broke all the rolls open and started counting them... One... Two... Three... Strangely enough I didn't care and let the line snake out of the bank when the sole teller counted an endless amount of change. Some people complained and I didn't listen. The teller didn't care either.

I woke up shortly after and went to work. Figures...

15 July 2004
(11:56:59) Me: i'm number 9
(11:57:02) Me: ala god
(11:57:18) Me: wayne's pizza should fucking pheer me
(11:57:43) Monkey: what?
(11:58:05) Me: right, you know when i stop making sense about once every hour or so?
(11:58:26) Monkey: yeah
(11:58:30) Monkey: one of them times
(11:58:38) Me: that was one of those times

13 July 2004
R.I.P TR4216. This is what should not happen when you rent a truck.

9 July 2004
No traffic on 290 this morning. Today is a good day.

7 July 2004
Yes. You are weird. Not because of your place in society, but rather because you reek of tomatoes. I have no idea what that means, all I know is, I am misspelling the most inane things today. Words like "of". Yeah.

1 July 2004
Right. It's July already. I got promoted two days ago. Yeah, it's weird be almost 24 and having a senior title. Got maybe 3 or 4 months left of working here before we get bought. Thinking about a decent vacation provided I get some sort of package. Maybe somewhere around Cork, Ireland or Kyoto, Japan. Everyone keeps asking why those two places. Well, they are both old and relatively safe places. Kyoto is, so far, my prefered destination. The only problem is, its f-ing expensive. At least 1200 for a roundtrip ticket and around 2900 for a room for two weeks. That's just getting there and having a place to sleep for 2 weeks... Mmeh.

29 June 2004
There is a 1998 law stating “contemporary community standards” should guide what is harmful to children. Thankfully, this crap was ruled unconstitutional earlier today. Voted down 5 to 4. That sort of a vote from our Supreme Justices scares me like the Colin Powell interview below.

Should the government tell your children what is indecent more than they already do? Maybe that's too harsh. Our shitty media is more to blame....

17 May 2004
Crap like this scares me. From the NYT.

Powell's Interview Is Cut Off By COURTNEY C. RADSCH

Published: May 17, 2004

ASHINGTON, May 16 — Secretary of State Colin L. Powell was abruptly cut off during an interview on Sunday on the NBC News program "Meet the Press" when one of his aides decided the interview had gone on long enough.

As Tim Russert, the program's host, began to ask his final question, the camera unexpectedly panned away from Mr. Powell, who was being interviewed in Jordan via a satellite link from Washington. In the confusion, Mr. Powell could be heard saying, "He's still asking me questions," to which a woman's voice answered, "No, he's not."

Mr. Powell, still off camera, said, "Tim, I'm sorry, I lost you," and added, "Emily, get out of the way." Mr. Russert, slightly irate, responded: "I think that was one of your staff, Mr. Secretary. I don't think that's appropriate." After a few seconds the camera returned to Mr. Powell and he finished the interview.

Betsy Fischer, the show's executive producer, identified the staff member as Emily Miller, deputy press secretary to Mr. Powell, and said Ms. Miller "pulled the plug" without warning. Although the interview was taped in advance, she said such interviews were usually run without being edited. Mr. Russert called it a case of "press management gone berserk."

"I've been doing this program for 13 years and nothing like that has ever happened," he said in a telephone interview. "I remember sometimes in countries around the world this happens, but not in America. This is a free press, and political figures can always say `I don't want to answer.' " He said he did not know if it was the content of the question that caused Ms. Miller's reaction or simply that the interview had gone over its allotted time.

Julie Reside, a State Department spokeswoman, said the interview had gone on considerably longer than scheduled, and that the personnel there "made every attempt to get NBC to finish up."

14 April 2004
VH1's Worst Songs ever.

1. We Built This City -- Starship
2. Achy Breaky Heart -- Billy Ray Cyrus
3. Everybody Have Fun Tonight -- Wang Chung
4. Rollin' -- Limp Bizkit
5. Ice Ice Baby -- Vanilla Ice
6. The Heart of Rock & Roll -- Huey Lewis and the News
7. Don't Worry, Be Happy -- Bobby McFerrin
8. Party All the Time -- Eddie Murphy
9. American Life -- Madonna
10. Ebony and Ivory -- Paul McCartney and Stevie Wonder
11. Invisible -- Clay Aiken
12. Kokomo -- The Beach Boys
13. Illegal Alien -- Genesis
14. From a Distance -- Bette Midler
15. I'll Be There for You -- The Rembrandts
16. What's Up? -- 4 Non Blondes
17. Pumps and a Bump -- Hammer
18. You're the Inspiration -- Chicago
19. Broken Wings -- Mr. Mister
20. Dancing on the Ceiling -- Lionel Richie
21. Two Princes -- Spin Doctors
22. Courtesy of the Red, White and Blue (THE ANGRY AMERICAN) -- Toby Keith
23. Sunglasses at Night -- Corey Hart
24. Five for Fighting -- Superman
25. I'll Be Missing You -- Puff Daddy featuring Faith Evans and 112
26. The End -- The Doors
27. The Final Countdown -- Europe
28. Your Body is a Wonderland -- John Mayer
29. Breakfast at Tiffany's -- Deep Blue Something
30. Greatest Love of All -- Whitney Houston
31. Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm -- Crash Test Dummies
32. Will 2K -- Will Smith
33. Barbie Girl -- Aqua
34. Longer -- Dan Fogelberg
35. Shiny, Happy People -- R.E.M.
36. Make Em Say Uhh! -- Master P featuring Silkk, Fiend, Mia-X and Mystikal
37. Rico Suave -- Gerardo
38. Cotton Eyed Joe -- Rednex
39. She Bangs -- Ricky Martin
40. I Wanna Sex You Up -- Color Me Badd
41. We Didn't Start the Fire -- Billy Joel
42. The Sounds of Silence -- Simon and Garfunkel
43. Follow Me -- Uncle Kracker
44. I'll Do Anything for Love (But I Won't Do That) -- Meat Loaf
45. Mesmerize -- Ja Rule featuring Ashanti
46. Hangin' Tough -- New Kids on the Block
47. The Only Thing That Looks Good on Me Is You -- Bryan Adams
48. Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da -- The Beatles
49. I'm Too Sexy -- Right Said Fred
50. My Heart Will Go On -- Celine Dion

14 April 2004
The traffic on I-290 is hell. My private hell consists of Walmart and I-290. In an attempt to avoid the traffic on 290, I took Park Ave. home. I now have a urge to become a police office so I can clean up Worcester. For the first time, I realize that Worcester is a giant heap of crap. There is sometime wrong when fourteen year old kids are driving 2003 BMW M3's and traffic cannot clear because they are too busy showing off. I really want to have a spic'ed out Honda Civic trying to race me at every light, just because I have 17 inch rims on my car.

In other news, the construction on I-290 is not causing any slow downs; the drivers are. There are signs a mile and a half before the construction asking drivers to merge right. Does anyone? Nope. Got to wait until the last possible seconds to merge. Unfortunately, this means stopping halfwat between lanes in order to force all on-coming traffic to stop. This is bad. If you do this, you need to stop. Now. I will be forced to kill you if I am in the car with you.

12 March 2004
The Dreaded Network Redesign - AKA A day in the life of Me.

0715 - Log in only to find half a dozen voicemails and emails concerning an email my boss has sent out. “Please make this change prior to shutting down your computers on Friday March 12th.“ Notice the non-specific time. “Prior to,“ duely noted as meaning as soon as you read this email, when it was intended to mean, “Right before you leave for the day.“

0900 - Senior PC Support Specialist asks where to find an HP print driver.

0920 - Networked time clocks use UDP. So much for making them work over frame. (Unrelated to redesign.)

1030 - “Stefan, can you redraw the network diagram?“

1156 - The Nokia IP120 is not badass enough for us. Time to courier in an IP330. Yes, I'm serious.

1341 - “What IP address is ftp1.domain.com?“ I'm thrilled I'm the only person in the support department who can run ping.

1511 - Laptop from 1997 I setup so I could configure switches with “borrowed“ for no obvious reason.

1559 - Serial configuration cables for ancient hardware are good. Even better when you can find them.

13 March 0048 - Don't ask.

25 Febuary 2004
me: i like cookies
them: cookies are good
me: everyone likes cookies
them: people who dislike cookies are unamerican
me: i would call them communists
them: it's not their fault they are deprived of cookies... cookies lead to hohos, hohos lead to twinkies. do you know where hoho's lead?
me: to fat people?
him: anarchy

2 Febuary 2004
Participate in your own manipulation.

7 January 2004
First update in almost 6 months. I'm on top of things. The last six months have taught me a few things.
1. Getting kicked by a black sash kung fu practitioner in the face is not a good thing.
2. Gin and Tonics are a perfect way to get extremely intoxicated.
3. Camping in New Hampshire is fun.
4. Restaurants and bars who do not have Guinness on tap are worthless.
5. Sketchers Work shoes are insane.
6. Second cousins once removed being hotter than hell and thirteen years should be illegal.

This is going to be a long post.

1. A few days before Thanksgiving, Jimmy (a black sash kung fu dood) and I decided we should free spar. No pads. No shoes. No mouthguards. After 20 or 30 minutes of me punching him in his half-broken ribs and him wailing on me, I tried to bob-and-weave out of one of his techniques. The old bob and weave doesn't work. I took a foot in the mouth and nose. My nose started to bleed. It was all good. Jimmy and everyone else were concerned that I was hurt and that was all I needed not to get angry. Don't bob and weave.

2. My class reunion. Mehow, Brian and Davey came back home and a pile of us went to our class reunion. We drank a lot. Any gin and tonic the bartender made was pretty much Bombay Sapphire with a splash of ice and a twist of lime. There might have been tonic in there. Brian was trashed enough to break three glasses.

3. Uncle Salty and I had our second annual camping expedition to New Hampshire. Lots our normal BS, some wandering, camp cooking and whittling. It rains every time we go camping. Bah.

4. Lately every other restaurant I go to has no Guinness. Self-explainitory. I love Guinness. Strangely enough, I'm getting huge into Beamish now. I haven't quite figured out what the Irish Stout beer addiction is.

5. A few months ago I bought some new Sketchers. I've had a sort of love/hate thing going for them, but their “Work“ line is insane. High traction soles, steel toe, high electrical protection in a decent looking and comfortable shoe? I pheer.

6. My stepmother's brother has a bunch of kids. Two of them are in their early teens and it scares me how much a thirteen year old girl can look like an eighteen year old girl. They are also insane. Wading into pond water in almost December in New England is tapped.

9 September 2003
For those of you in lala land looking for a computer related job, don't get one. You'll end up hating computers. Yeah seriously. To be totally honest you can be about as smart as a gopher and be a successful computer repair or support technican. No, I'm not joking. Uncle Salty related to me yesterday, a story about a dood who has been working with SunOS for a few years and doesn't know how to use the “ifconfig“ command. Horrible. I get to deal with people who can't remember two or three passwords, which, I feel, means they have an of IQ 66 or so. An yeah, when co-workers go on the Atkins diet, find out which starch ridden food they love most and order it a few times a week for lunch.

21 August 2003
Life is pretty damned strange. Lately, I've been having somewhat of a mean streak and, pretty much, have only seen Uncle Salty or Carol for any extended period of time. I'm still going to kung fu three times a week and hope I'm getting at least somewhat tough. Anyway, Uncle Salty and I are having some second thoughts regarding our training mainly since every night we train to exhaustion. Besides giving us more endurance, we aren't sure how this is making us any better. We finally are sparring though and that's fun, but I have one gripe. (Heh, figures right?) We aren't allowed to hit hard. Of course, hard is pretty relative, but if you never get hit hard and get into a fight, you can consider yourself owned.

I bought a Gamecube and Metroid Prime. I like Metroid Prime.

8 July 2003
I stopped posting here because you suck. :-)

21 May 2003
I'm fixing my crappy text formatting job. Yeah. I'm lame. The div tag works. Yeah and guess what? The fixed formatting saves 1.07 kb. Talk about sweet.

7 May 2003
Back again. The new box is all finished and happy. Nice and quiet too. Its little and black and shiny. The door really isn't proving to be much of an issue, but it gets a little annoying once and awhile. Picked up Command and Conquer: Generals too. And on that note, I turned my McNugget into my multimedia PC. The one that plays the mp3s and takes care of the 5.1 surround sound for the TV. The new box is hooked up to it via the Soundblaster Audigy 2's SPDIF interface. Damn skippy.

23 April 2003
So yeah, I broke down and ordered and Antec Sonata case. Its supposed to be quiet. My only gripe with the case is the door on the front of the case. Those doors generally piss me off. I thought it was because I swapped cds around a lot, but after some careful thought, I realized that I hardly ever toss a cd in the damned thing. It comes with a 380 watt Antec Tru-Power quiet PSU and a pair of 120 mm temperture sensitive fans. I think as I get older, I'm getting a lot pickier about noise. Like Harleys. Harleys with straight pipes running at around 100 - 120 decibels. That's louder than your average thunder storm. With the riding season upon us, I'm loading up the .270 and ordering a night vision scope.

21 April 2003
Time to build a new computer. Here's a little blurb on components.
Athlon XP 2500+ (yeah it's got a Barton core)
Asus A7V8X
512 Mb Dual Channel Corsair PC2700
Maxtor DiamondMax Plus 9 80 Gb (fluid bearings)
Zalman CNPS5100CU

I need a new PSU. Like a 420 watt Vantec Stealth PSU. I need a new case. Coolermaster has a nice little McNuggety thing as does Lian Li. Basically, I'm trying to keep this computer nice and quiet. Hopefully, I won't even be able to hear the damned thing. Another little gripe I'm having is finding a nice case. I don't want a window or a cold cathode light. When I hear "cathode", I think catheter. That's not something I wish to dwell on when I hit the power button. All the retail case sites seem to think that everyone wants a big hole covered in glass on one or both sides of their case. I liken it to installing a plexiglass hood on your mom's 1989 Honda Civic and driving down main street like the tough guy you are. If someone wants to look; they'll ask. If you have a decent case, taking two thumbscrews out of the back isn't too hard is it?

3 April 2003
I'm working my daily emails again. Trying to dump a little more hate and anger into the world. Heh.

11 March 2003
I love detective stories. I think a big part of being a investigator is contacts. Intuition has a a big part too, but a good old fashioned spy network really hits home. When you are suspect about someone's credibility, its generally pretty easy to tell what they are hiding. Sudden changes in demeanor are a huge give away. You know you are getting close when commonplace events trigger immeadiate changes. Yeah. I'm an ass. I know.

10 March 2003
Nothing is really new in life. Work is chewing on my head as usual. Its pretty much the worst head I've ever gotten. I'm not really sure what I want to do anymore. It feels like everything I do at work gets either overlooked or under-appreciated. Call me insane but I think that happens everywhere. I'd really like to have a team leader position or something. Things could be done so much better here. While I know I could probably fix a good deal of work flow and like issues, I know I would be an ass about of it just because I enjoy saying, "No." I need medical attention.

5 March 2003
Being sick pretty much blows. I've been coughing up orange goo for about 4 days now. Bah. The goo is pretty nasty. It sticks to anything. Gross. So yeah, other than that, not much is going on. I'm back to work and tired of it already. The most fun I've had today is putting the barcode labels on our AIT-2 tapes. Lemme tell you, that's a blast. Cousin Chris just got me into Kings of Chaos. It seems to be pretty fun, but I keep getting owned. Pretty much everyone gets off on stealing my money when I just sit back and try and build up my defenses. I don't want to attack anyone. I just want get money and chill. Eh. Whatever. I beat Unreal 2 on monday. It got pretty easy after I got the controls down...

17 Febuary 2003
It's snowing again. Get me a gun. A scary gun. A gun with “personality“.

13 Febuary 2003
So yeah, good news. I almost have every Depeche Mode studio cd. The stupid slut of an x would be pumped for me. Yeah! But I really like Depeche Mode. Hopefully, they'll go on tour and I'll be able to check them out. All the cds I have are ripped to mp3, so if you are ever looking for any DM song let me know. Other than that, Carol is coming home from New Orleans tonight and I have tomorrow off. I might as well mention that I started taking Kung Fu in August. Strangely enough, it is super difficult. They strive to get you into shape and generally make you into a better person. Basically, there are two schools of thought in Kung Fu. The Northern branch and the Southern branch. We study both. Northern consists of very exaggerated movements and deep stances, while Southern is more upright, direct, fast, and powerful. I just started specializing in Southern. Give me a couple weeks and I'll be breaking face all over the place.

11 Febuary 2003
I do geek stuff. We just got a new HP DL380 dual xeon 2.8 ghz naughty box. Its loud. Almost as loud as my car. I wish computers would be quiet. I've gotten my system at home to be, more or less, unobrusive by installing an Enermax Whipser 350 Watt PSU, four Vantec Stealth 80mm fans, a Zalman CNPS-3100 Flower Cooler with a massive 92mm fan, and replacing my northbridge cooler with a Zalman NB32 heatsink. So what used to sound like a blow dryer, sounds like ambient backround noise. When I bought my Little storage mcnugget box, I bought pretty much all low noise, low profile stuff. The mcnugget pretty much wants anything you can cram into it.



10 Febuary 2003
I'm hoping to give you all a little insight into my oh so ever interesting life here. You all will be pretty impressed to find out that my interesting life is quite boring and probably banal. I wouldn't really describe myself as banal. The word most frequently placed with my name is “distorted“.

1. To twist out of a proper or natural relation of parts; misshape.
2. To give a false or misleading account of; misrepresent.
3. To cause to work in a twisted or disorderly manner; pervert.

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