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My initial inspiration for this
came in the mid-l980s, while reading an interview with a theatrical group
out in San Francisco called "Ladies Against Women" (LAW). Assuming
the costume and character of conservative, true-Christian, anti-feminist
"ladies," these men argue passionately against, and in the process
effectively make the case for, feminism, among a great many other things.
I was living in a school bus in a cow pasture at the time -- me and my
bovine companions, trying to process our experiences traveling around the
country into a compact, well-held-together whole, and coming up with similar
results.
Everyone was saying, "Non-fiction is the fiction of the 80's!",
and giving me Norman Mailer and Truman Capote to read.
But after reading this interview, I wondered whether fiction might not
be the non-fiction of the 90s, and began creating my own polar opposite
to get behind, to dramatize in non-fiction
form what has really been on my mind since I was a child: that the Jesus-figure
worshipped as God by fundamentalist Christians is the Antichrist
for whom they are forever on the lookout, and that their religion is a
kind of cosmic "sting" operation, designed
to get them all in one place and then "boom!", collapse their
own whitewashed walls in upon them in the manner
of Ezekiel 13.14.
Forsaking all progressive publications, I cast my net entirely on the other
side, subscribing to every fundamentalist Christian publication I could
find, getting my name on every fundamentalist Christian mailing list, studying
at the electronic feet of Jimmy Swaggart, Billy Graham, Jerry Falwell,
et al. And lo, as Jimmy Swaggart used to say, I began to catch more fish
than you could ever even think about. And the reason this happened, I now
realize, goes back to my childhood.
Though we went to church religiously every Sunday when I was growing up,
we were not a particularly religious family. My father said church was
a good place to pick up business, and my mother watched the occasional
Billy Graham Crusade on TV.
Both grandmothers were deeply fundamentalist, however -- one the daughter
of a circuit-riding, fire-and-brimstone, Southern Baptist preacher from
the mountains of Eastern Tennessee, the other a Bible-toting Seventh-Day
Adventist from Jackson, Mississippi, overflowing with mysterious dates
and numbers, and all manner of strange,
symbolic beast.
Since I was the only child in either family who showed any natural interest
in the Bible (though none whatsoever in church), each grandmother set her
sights on winning my soul to the greater glory of her particular Jesus's
kingdom, each with his own peculiar, often contradictory
requirements for one to be considered officially "saved."