1/4/11
Its the middle of the first week of January allready. Time Sure flys. Have been doing ok since I Was last here. Infact I have been doing really good. But it does Not feel like it. I Struggled a bit with the first two days of The New Year. My Drinking. But Have Had NONE since Sunday. You know I'am just flat out Deppressed. And I dont know why.? Lets look at Dan's life. Am 50 Now. Have My own Home, Two Cars, Good Job, No Debt, No Health Problems, Have Brothers-Sister- Mother Still here in the Valley. Have No Children or Wife, Am ok with that. Have JESUS in My life everyday. Born-Agine-Christian. Going to Heaven Soon. Great Freinds All over the Place. Have Fun Hobbie. Shortwave Radio Operation. Have $ to spend on that. So What do I have to be Deppressed about.? Will come back to this another day I think. Dan......
4:55 p.m. Its been about two Hours Now. Dont get Me wrong Please. I dont feel all that bad all the time. Mabe I Just had a bad day.? My day started Way to Early. about 1:00 a.m. this Morning. Woke Up Not feeling so well. Had a really Nice Steak dinner last Night. Even tho I love a Good Rare Steak. It does NOT allways agree with Me. So My day started off kind of bad because of that. And While Still laying In Bed trying to get My Eyes used to the Light. I started thinking about a Conversation My Freind JR and I had on the Phone that Evening about the Weather. And I Imediatly thought about My Truck and that I had Not checked the Water Level in The Radiator for some time. Its been leaking for a few Months Now. Not sure where. And Suddenly realized I have Been pouring water in there for Months Now as the level gets down. And Now here it is Freezing out side for some time Now. And I dont have Antifreeze in it. That is Not good to let the water freeze up in the Engine. But I realized then I have NOT been paying attention to this Problem enough and Now mabe its to late. So I get My self togather and go out side this Morning before 2:00 a.m. and Yeah its Way below Freezing out side. Ice all over the Truck. So I start it up and notice I'am all most out of Gas. Let it run abit to warm Up. Well about 4:00 a.m. this Morning I start it up agine and scrap all the Ice off the windows and drive way over to a 24 Hour Gas station on Biddle road for Gas and buy a very Exspensive Jug of Antifrezze. That would have been a lot cheaper at Bimart. Well anyway got Home and it was about time to drive up to the Church. Took My Nissan this Morning. Going to Meet My Freind JR up there at 6:00 a.m. for Coffee. Oh By the way I Noticed today I have been driving the Nissan with Expired Tags for about three weeks Now. Forgot about Putting them On. I bought them a Month ago. Found them today in The Glove Box. That Was Stupid of Me to forget that.
Anyway Whent up to Church Had a Pretty good time there. I Found it very hard to consentrate during the Service. Stayed after the service for about 30 Minutes. Then I had to leave to go Pick up My Mother for a shoping Trip. That didnt go so good. Frustrating to say the Least. And The Groccerys I bought on that trip I Stupidly left them at My Mothers House. I have Not whent back there to get them today. Just been sitting here at Home since I got back at 11:00 a.m. Fell asleep a few times in My Recliner.
Today should have been a wonderfull day. I should NOT be feeling Deppressed or bad. I Called on JESUS this Morning and HE Met Me. I know HE is there for Me anytime. So Why do I feel so bad today.? I dont feel bad enough to drink. that is NOT a Problem today. But I dont feel like I will be able to fight off that kind of attack from the enemy in the next days to come. I Must turn to JESUS at that time. I Sure feel weak right at this Moment.

1/11/11
Good-Morning. I just now Noticed The Unusual Date we have today. I Guess that will Never happen agine. Well it has been a Up & Down week for Me. Still Feeling the Depression on a Daily Basis. I'am sure the cold foggy Weather We have been haveing for the last few weeks has something to do with it. Just Day after day of No Sunshine. And Still battling with the Afterwork Beer Desires. I Was Bound and Determined NOT to take this Problem into the New Year. Well so Much for that Idea. At this Point in My life it will be very Easy to give in and Just say the hell with it. Might as well Just Drink My self to Death. That would be Really easy to say right Now. That is What satan keeps telling me to do. And if I dont keep comming to JESUS each and everyday. satan will beat Me. I'am One of a Zillion People across the world that Can't seem to say NO to The Alcohol. For Me it usually starts on Thursday afternoon. And allmost allways ends on Monday Morning. Stress at work I Guess is the Starting Point for Me each week. Will be facing that agine starting tomarrow. But I'am Not giveing up. I Care enough to keep on Fighting. JESUS has Never gave up on Me No matter what I have done. And that is Where I get My Strength to NEVER give up on My Self. So I will Keep fighting this Problem each and every week. Oh I will probably give in agine soon.? But I Will also get very angery with My self and Put a stop to it agine as well. Its a Battle for sure. Mabe one I need to be going through right Now.? One day I will have complete victory over it. I know that will Happen for Me.
Will be heading up to the Morning Service this Morning In about an Hour. Meeting My good Freind JR up there for the Service. So Untill Next time. May The LORD Bless Your Day. Dan...

1/13/11
Thursday-Morning. 2:55 a.m.
I didn't get back here Yesterday like I had Planned to. It wasn't My Best day at work. didn't feel good Yesterday. And even today Still dont feel all that good. Stomach Problems. Probably to Much Coffee there in the beginning of My week on top of the acholol Abuse I have been doing Periodicly. Can Mean Stomach Problems for Me that go on for several days. feeling a little better today. Need to not violate My 4 Cup of Coffee a day rule. So Today that Means NO Coffee while at the Morning Service today. That will be No Prblem today. As My Stomach is still Upset.
I did have a good day at work Yesterday. A Short day. Only 6 Hours. Worked on a Special Cake for the week-End. Lemon Cake. We do that Now that Its the slow Season. The Chef comes up with a good Lunch and dinner Special And a Lower Price to try to bring People in. And with it they get a slice of the Special Cake. This Week it is the Lemon Cake. Very similar to the Traditional Lemon-Mist-Cake. Seems to sell Pretty good. So today I need to get that finished. Cut, and taken Downstairs for Lunch time. Today will be another short day I think. Not Planning to get there untill about 7:30 a.m. I Allmost allways go in late on Thursdays Because that is Applegate Rotary Morning. And they Meet up stairs in The Banquet Room. And As The Bakery is allso Up Stairs I Can Not be up there Making a Bunch of Noise Untill they are done with There Meeting at 8:00 a.m. Therefore. It is the Perfect time For Me to Head up to The Church and The Morning Service.
Allso I did some Reseach and found a very Easy way to add a video to My page. I have tested it out here on My Computer and it works good. However I dont know if It will work once uploaded to the Server.? Will just have to make one and try it out. And since I have time this Morning. I will make a Quick test video Now and send it to the server and see what happens. so I will be back tomarrow Hopfully. Untill Then. GOD Bless Your Day. Dan...

1/14/11
Friday-Morning. 5:10 a.m.
Agine I wake up Not feeling very good. Stomach and Head-Ach today. I thought It Might be The coffee. So Since Wednesday I have watched My self on that. Only a few Cups a day in The Morning. And Now today I Acctually feel worse. Must be something eles. I dont know.? On My way home from work Yesterday I had to stop at Bimart and Pick up More Ant-Acid Medication. It helps alot. I Honestly Beleve this is Brought on by The LORD. HE has His Ways of Keeping us going in The right Direction. After all I Prayed that HE would Take the Desire of Alcohol away from Me and keep Me away from it. And it's working good. The last thing I have been thinking about is Drinking. It would be impossible with My Up set stomach to Even drink any kind of thing like that. Even Soda Pop I could NOT handle right Now. I know HE is doing this for a good Reason to get Me past the Desire. To Move Me forward. To get Me on the right Path as I Prayed. FATHER THY WILL BE DONE. NOT MY WILL. Sometimes It is Unpleasent what HE must do for Us. But in the End it is good. So Just hang on Dan. Things will be fine.
I need to get going now off to work. I see My Test video is working ok. at least on My systems I can watch the video I uploaded to the Server. Hopefully It will work on anyone eles system too. But only You will Know that. Well I got to get going. More on My Future Videos Tomarrow. Untill the next time GOD BLess Your Day. Dan...

1/15/11
Saurday-Morning. 2:49 a.m.
Another Bad Nights sleep and continued Stomach Problems. However its a little better this Morning. At least I'am NOT Drinking like I would Normally be doing by this time of the week. The LORD has Stoped Me from doing that In HIS Way. So I'am very Thankfull for that. Did Have a Pretty good day at work Yesterday dispite all that is Going Wrong with Me Now. I'am Just Thankfull that I can go to work each day and do the Things I can do. So Many Can Not. So I'am very Happy With The FATHER Taking over My Life The Way HE has. I Pray HE will Continue to do that.
About the Video Section of this Page. I dont plan to make very many of them. Just Kind of Special events. I have a Idea for One Possibly today. Will depend on Conditions later in the day. Dan...

1/17/11
Monday-Morning. 8:30 a.m.
I havent had the greatest start to My day today. Drank last night foolishly. I was doing Pretty well there for a week. even tho I was quite sick most of those days with The Stomach Problems. Feel ok today dispite Drinking last night and Having My Favorite Pizza. I Guess what brought on My decision to drink was It being Friday Night. That one is Hard for Me. But also I Whent over to someones House afterwork and Looked at a Old Short-wave Radio He has for sale. And that is Where the drinking Started. Well More about the Radio later. I Want to do some Reseach on That. then come back here and talk about it.....

1/18/11
Tuesday-Afternoon. 4:40 p.m.
It feels pretty good to be comming here on a daily basis and Writing this Journal. I Doubt that I will continue to do it so often. I'am sure sooner or later I will be back to comming here once a week or longer. But for Now it is a good thing for Me. Today was a Wonderfull Day. A Definate Howdy Day. A very Pleasent day. And Now its Drawing to a close. I wish I could feel like this every day. But I know It does Not work like that. And Mabe that is why I Choose to drink by the End of My work week.? SPeaking of Drinking. I Had a Really long Talk with Cindi up at the Church this Morning in The Coffee shop after Service. She & I whent to School togather 31 Plus Years ago but Just two Years ago Met up agine at The Morning Service. She found out accidently about My Drinking Problem Just before Xmast and Saw that I was Still doing it. She was NOT to Pleased about it and told Me so. And I guess I have been avoiding Her all this time. But today We ran into each other there and spent about 30 Minutes talking about things. It was very Nice. I know She cares and all that. But when You dont want to Hear about things Well its a Drag. But I'am glad we Talked about it. I think She has the Impression that I'am completely done with it Now. And I wish and Pray that I'am but I dont know.? I cant seem to see a end to it.? I think I'am done waisting My time with that right Now. but in a few days. that could Change.?. I know I will be seeing things diffrently by the week-end. I dont even know if this makes any sence at all what I'am saying. I Guess I'am just a bit uncompfortable talking To Her about My Drinking. I dont want to lie to anyone. I just dont think I'am done with it Yet. And I know I left Her with that Impression This Morning. Mabe I'am making to much out of this.
I Spent a lot of time up at Applegate this Morning. Helped JR and those Guys put togather the 55 & alive Room. And Sat down with Everet & Nadin and Had a Nice Chat. Got Home about Noon. Had time to catch a Quick little nap in the Recliner. And then I Started work on My 2010 Taxes. I thought it would be Really hard this Year with Having a New Job. But it acctually seemed Easyer. And I will be getting a little bit More $ back too. Will find out in the Next day or two if The IRS will Accept it or Not.?
One last thing for today before I Turn in for the Night. I was going to put up a video today. However I can not find My Camara. I know I brought it Home Sunday from work. I Remember that. I Remember bring it in the House. but I must have set it somewhere and Now I cant find it. I did look breifly a bit a go. But to tired to do that Now. I will Scower (if that is a word) The house first thing in the Morning and find that. And if It looks ok will up load it. May The LORD Be with You allways. Good-Night. Dan...

1/19/11
Wednesday-Morning. 5:37 a.m.
There is some big Problem with the Above Video. Mabe to big? dont know.? Will fool around with it later on this afternoon. Dan...

1/20/11
Thursday-Morning. 3:58 a.m.
Good-Morning. And It is a Pretty good Morning so far. Feel Pretty good this Morning. A Bit of a Upset Stomach. Just slight. That is Not to unusual for me. But once I get up and get going it usually goes away. Had KFC for dinner last night. I hardly ever have stuff like that. Kind of Nice once or twice every few Months.
Got My Taxes done correctly Tuesday. It was acctually More simple this time. And getting a bit more $ back this Year as well. It was aproved and the Check's are on there way?
The big Hammarlund Short-Wave-Radio is On hold. He is going to spend sometime on it this comming week-end getting it fixed. So Mabe this time Next week I will be the New owner of that big Post WW2 Short-Wave-Reciever. Really looking forward to Spending some time DX-ing with that old Gem. And will Make some Videos of that in Action I think.
Speaking of Videos. I'am sad to say the Last Video I Posted here on My Page Is still Not working. And I dont know why???. I have Checked and Re Checked all My Tag's & code's. I have Properly Uploaded everything. Its all there. But does Not work from the Server. But it does work when I use My Computer as the Server. So the Problem Must be with the Server I use.?. The Video file is over 500 MB and that is Probably where the Problem is. It's got me Stumped. Will Leave it for the Next few days or so and see what Happens. Mabe it will just start working.? I Doubt it. Anyway Might Have to scrap My Video Idea on this Page.
Getting Ready to Head up to the Early Morning Service this Morning. Can't stay very long at that. Got a pretty Busy day at work this Morning. Need to Have My Week-end Special Pies Ready to Serve this afternoon. They go Fast. It will be a good day. Its will be a Day with JESUS in Command. It will be a Great Day. GOD Bless. Dan...

1/29/11
Saturday-Morning. 5:10 a.m.
When I read the above Post I did More then a week ago. I wonder what happend to that Guy.? Where did He go? I sure dont feel like Him right now. Since then I got a bad Head Cold. Tempararly lost the Hearing in My Left Ear. Got Really sick. Lost time at work. Lost all interest in Just about everything. Except Drinking My Self silly each day after work. the enemy Has really been picking on Me lately.

2/2/11
Wednesday-Morning. 4:54 a.m.
It's been a Bad two week Period. Been Depressed. I think it is the Long Winter Depression that can set in on Us. I thought I had My Drinking Problem Beat this time Last week. Had good time at The Morning Worship Last Thursday Morning. Finally got to Meet up with an old Freind that Has been suffering from the Same Problem I do. He Was doing good. Nice to talk to Him about this Stuff. But later on that Day. I'am right back to Drinking after work agine and continued to do so for 5 Days. Today is only My second day of being Sober. Feel really good right now. And getting ready to head off to work Now. So I will be back here later today or this time tomarrow. GOD Bless. Dan...

2/7/11
Monday-Afternoon. 3:13 p.m.
I Sure have been off Track now for a Couple of Weeks. I dont Even remember the last Sober day I had. Doing good today. So Far. I would have to go to the Store if I wanted to Drink today. And I'am just NOT going to do that. Its one day at a time I Guess.

2/8/11
Tuesday-Afternoon. 2:44 p.m.
I just stepped out side to get something from the Truck And I notice it has gotten colder since this Morning. And there was a bit of Hail or Freezing Rain comming down. Strange. Unexspected. Well We are still in The Throws of Winter here.
I have had a Great day today. Started off up at The Morning Service This Morning. It was very nice. I miss My Freind Cindi up there. She is Now at a Mission In Mexico working. Not Sure How long She will be gone.? I Met up there this Morning with My old Freind JR. He is doing good. Helped Him Set up The 55 and alive group before I left to go do some Shopping at Winco. I have been making some Changes in My life Latley. One of Them is back to a good Diet. Last summer I gave up Starches all togather. Potatos. And Replaced them with Green Salads. It worked out really good. But over the Winter and Not caring Much about My self I let them and The alcohol come back in to My life. I Bought a ton of Good Salad Stuff today to be making up diffrent Salads as The Spring time and warmer Temps begine to arrive.
Today is My Second Day with out drinking. The Superbowl Sunday was a bad day for me. And I would like to make that bad day the Last day that I Whent to that well to drink. Its one day at a time of Course. But I'am feeling good about it. One day at a time Dan.
Also another Change I made in My life Was on The last day of January. Cut all My Hair off and My Gotee. I'am as Bald as a Billiard Ball Now. Feels good. So Much Gray in My Breard. I'am glad that is gone. And My Hair. I Might Grow it back. Its Funny. I have a Natural Part in My Hair on the left side That GOD Gave me for some Reason. Once it gets about a half inch Long it just Naturally begins to Part Right There. and looks good like that. But If I let it get much longer I loose that Natural Part. I Cant Exsplain it. But I know its there. It should start to show up in 3 to 4 weeks from now. Mabe that is How The LORD wishes Me to look instead of trying to look 25 agine. Will see how it goes.
So My Attempt at Adding Videos to My Page apears to have failed. I need to take down the two that I added more then a Month ago. How ever I'am not going to give up. And that Leads Me up to the final thing to talk about here today and that is The Hammarlund Shortwave Radio. I brought it Home a Month ago and Imediatly Lost interest in it. Probably because of My Drinking. So there it sat on My Dinning-Room-Table Week after week in need of a little bit of Repair. Finnaly last week I got around to getting if Fixed and Moved in here to the Den. I Now Have a small little Ham-Shack or Radio Shack in the corner of the Room. Its all set up Now and works Great. And I want to try to make a little video of it in action. How ever Short-Wave listening is Really Hit or Miss. A lot depends on what is happening in The Ionosphere at the time. And it can Change Hour to Hour. So It can be a Real Challenge to Hear Stations Accross The Globe. So Far today I have only been able to pick up Stations here in the North America Area. Mexico. Florida. Ect. However last Evening I was able to tune in some Stations Somewhere in Europe. I couldnt even understand some of the languages. So that is what I'am hoping to do a bit later on. make a video of that kind of Action if the Conditions are correct. Or in the comming Days. So that is it for today. Time to go into the Kitchen and begine Preparing some Salad Stuff for Dinner tonight. I think a Small House Salad. Lettus, Red Cabbage, Grated Carrots And Beets, with. Avacado, Tomato, Salami, Mozzarell Cheese Croutons, And a Nice Italian Dressing will be good with a Cheese Burger. with Lettus, Onion, tomato, Pickle, Mustard, Yumm. I know. Not very Healthy. But I'am Trying. Untill Next time GOD Bless. Dan...

video for 2/8/11

2/14/11
Monday-Afternoon. 1:47 p.m.
Good Afternoon. For the First time in Months I have a couple of windows open in My House this afternoon. Its still a bit Chilly out side. 59 or 60 Degrees. Feels good. I'am really sick of the Freezing Mornings. Perhapes that is Part of the Reason I keep turning to The Alcohol. There are other Reasons As Well. I have made some Pretty bad Choices in the last 4 Days. But today I have choosen NOT to Drink. I have been home All day. So No Stress of The work Place on My Shoulders. I will Make it Easly today and tomarrow with out Drinking. However. after My work week begins? I dont know. One Day at a time Dan.
Well My Video I Put up last week does work on My Systems. Anyone Elesess. I dont know.? But I have decided to go back to Using YouTube instead. Its easyer to use I think. And Probably will work better. I made a Short Video this Morning for YouTube of The Hammarlund Short-Wave. It came out ok. Not alot of Activity Happening this Morning with The Ionosphere. But there will be other times. I will Post that Here today. Now that I'am going to be using YouTube. I will try to make that work Related Video agine Mabe on Wednesday Morning. My Nikon Camara will Make Huge Videos. And I think Youtube will beable to handle it.

2/16/11
Wednesday-Morning. 3:45 a.m.
Good Wednesday Morning. Feel so Good this Morning. This is My Third Day of being Sober. Feels good and I hope and Pray that I will beable to Keep this going. Will Be returning to work this Morning in a few Hours. I Might make that Work Related Video this Morning.? Not sure what I will be facing at work this Morning. Since I havent been there for Two days. Might have a lot to do today with Valentines day on Monday. Will See. This is Usually the Day I start Drinking after work. I will fight that Tooth and Nail today. If I dont call On The LORD at that time. I dont think I could do it.? HE is there for Me anytime I know. But sometimes it is Hard to bring My Self to ask for HIS help. the enemy tells Me I Have NO Business going to HIM My FATHER. And that is why I can fail so often. JESUS is There for Me anytime I Need HIM. Remember that Dan. And Now I need to shove off to work now. Will be back later this afternoon afterwork. Drinking or Not.? to Add a Video I just made of The Shortwave Receiver and Probably a work Video as well. Dan...

2/17/11
Thursday-Morning. 3:21 a.m. Good-Morning. A Cold and Icy Morning out side My House here in Medford. And that Makes The Decision for Me about going up to The Morning Service this Morning. If it is Icy here. I know it will be even worse going up to The Church this Morning. It Rained Last Night here. That Means Icy Roads this Morning. So I wont be going up there this Morning before work. Its ok. Can have My own Morning Worship right Here in My House. I got a lot to Be thankfull for. GOD Has Blessed My life Hugely. HE has given Me many Blessing through out My life and continues to do so. But so often the enemy blinds Me of that. And gets me consentrating on My Unhappyness with this world. But NOT today. Today I Have JESUS Walking right beside Me. HE is there. I know. Today is My 4th Day with out drinking. It will be Challanging later on after work. the enemy will be picking on Me for sure. I know that. JESUS will be there walking with Me all the way. I just need to call on HIM instead of anything eles. I Will make it. As Long as I keep My Eyes On JESUS and what HE did For Me so long ago. I know I can do it.
I can't go to work untill allmost 8:00 a.m. this Morning. Thursdays are The Meeting of The jacksonville-Applegate Rotary Club from 6:00 a.m. till 8:00 a.m. And they Meet up stairs in The Banquet room where My Bakery is located. You can see that in one of the Videos I'am posting today. So I can't be up there making a bunch of Noise untill there Meeting is over. So it is the Perfect day for Me to attend the Morning Service. But I hate that Road between jacksonville and Ruch when it is Icy. Just dont want to take that Chance.
Below I have Posted the Videos I made yesterday. Not to exciting. Just kind of A day in the life of Dan on one of His good days. Mabe I should do these Kind of Videos More often.? Mabe.? Well Untill next time here. GOD Bless You. Dan...

2/18/11
Friday-Morning. 4:15 a.m. It's a Good-Morning today. And Good Start to My Day. Payday today as well. Today is My 5th Day with-out Drinking. Very Happy with that. Yesterday was a Struggle in The afternoon before I left work. I Wanted to go to the Store and buy Beer on My Way Home. I Wanted to Really bad but did Not. After I got Home I told My Self. Well Dan. You can allways run down to the little store down the street and get a Six-Pack. In The Mean time The LORD got Me Busy making Dinner. Preping My Salad Stuff and after dinner HE Put such a Nice Relaxed Tired Feeling upon Me that I Simply forgot about My Desire For the Afterwork Beer. How Wonderfull HE is. Sometimes HE works in Our lifes and We are Not even aware of It. Last Night HE Put Me to Bed Early. Brought a Good Nights Sleep apon Me. took that Desire of the Alcohol away from Me. That I exactly What My Prayers Have been. And Other I know Have been Praying the same thing for Me As well. I'am so Happy and thankfull that I have Freinds that Pray for Me. Prayer Works I know that.
Well today is another Day at the work Place. And I know I will be facing that same Temptation agine this afternoon. I will allso be Praying to My FATHER that HIS SON will be walking with Me agine this Day. And That I will be talking to HIM this Day. And That Is How You and I Have victory over the enemy. Allways Staying I contact with JESUS. HE Promised to allways be there for Us. But We Must Meet HIM Half Way. Or HE Can't work in Us. As Soon As I try to do it on My own. Then I'am on My Way to the Store After work. I Pray that is Over for Me Now.
Its allmost 5:00 a.m. Now. Need to get Ready for work. I did Make another Hammarlund Video this morning. And will be adding it to the Page sometime soon. I will Probably be a day or two behind on Adding Videos. First Must be uploaded to Youtube then added Here. Youtube seems real slow Now? But it's working out ok. Untill the Next time GOD Bless. Dan...

2/19/11
Saturday-Morning. 3:25 a.m. I Made a Really bad Choice Yesterday afternoon and Had Drinks after work. Things are Not so good Now. But I'am NOT giveing up on My Self. And JESUS Will NOT give up on Me Either.

2/20/11
Sunday-Afternoon. 2:37 p.m.

2/22/11
Tuesday-Afternoon. 5:16 p.m. I Failed agine this last week to give up the Alcohol completely. But NOT giving up. It was a bit of a better week. Not sure what Got Me to Drink agine Starting I think Friday Night.? Doesnt Matter I Guess. I will be facing Life anyway. So No Exscuses. Life happens.
Today is My Day one. Havent even left My House today. Just been taking it easy. Relaxing. Sober today. And I Return to work tomarrow and will Have to face everything agine. Only I dont have to face things alone. JESUS is there for Me. If I just call on HIM.

2/24/11
Thursday-Morning. 3:45 a.m. I Had Planned to come here last Night for a Update. However I was so Dog-Gone tired afterwork and After a Good Dinner I couldnt do anything but go to Bed. Thanks to The LORD for Putting a Heavy Sleep on Me at a time I Desire to Drink instead. HE Does Answer Our Prayers. Today is My 3rd day of Being Sober. And I'am so Happy for that and Pray that I will remain that way. Its up to Me. My Choice. I Pray that when the times comes. I will Make the Choice that I Really want instead of a Quick fix.
We are supposed to be Haveing a big Snow Storm right at the Moment Here in Medford Oregon. Up to Six inches was Predicted to fall here on the Valley Floor Starting Last night and Into Today. That would be a BIG Snow Storm for here. So Far only a Small amount of Rain has come down. I was just out side and Its cloudy and Cold and Looks Pretty Threatening.? The Winter Warning goes untill 4:00 P.m. today. So there is Still Plenty of time.
I was Not planning to attend the Morning Service this Morning because of the Threat of Snow and having to drive over the Big Hill to get there. But I dont know Now. Mabe. will see in the Next two Hours.

2/25/11
Friday-Morning. 5:15 a.m. The Big Snow storm was about a day behind. Over Night we got about an Inch of Snow here. It Must have fallen very slowly over Night. It was Snowing slightly when I whent to bed last night. and Is still Slightly comming down Now. I Have about an Inch on the Truck but Nothing on The Pavement around My House. Will take a Picture or two of it later on when it gets Lighter out side. I dont know what It will be like up in J'ville. But will find out in about and Hour or so.

2/26/11
Saturday-Morning. 4:00 a.m. It is very very cold out side this Morning. It did Snow a tiny bit last Night while I Slept. And Now it is Clear and Cold. Very Cold. I Put My Refrigerator Themometer out side on The Hood of the Pick-Up a Little while ago. It Reads 8 Dregees this Morning. Its going to be a Skatting Rink out there today. I hope everyone will be very Carefull while walking and Driving this Morning. I will going to work somewhere Between 6 & 6:30 a.m. this Morning. there will Practically be No Traffic around at that time on a Week-end Morning. And I will Probably be the First one In Jacksonville this Morning. Or Close to. It Might be another Long day today at work.? And that is Ok. Keeps Me Busy.
The Pictures I uploaded yesterday are good. However I think they are not working so good on this Page. Making it slow. So I might end up removing them soon. They should be in The Photo-Album. And I will Put them there sometime If I Ever get back to doing that work.?

3/1/11
Tuesday-Afternoon. 3:09 p.m. This last week was a little better for Me then the Last 20 or 30 weeks of My life. Not Really. Just kidding about the 20 or 30. More like 5 or 6. Each week it seems like I get a bit More of A Handle on My Drinking Problem. I only Hit it Three times this last week. Had 4 Days Sober. Its Not Suposed to work that Way. We are Not suposed to beablke to Slowly get off of It. That Is what Man Says. But I have Put My Self in JESUS Hands and Well Things are Happening to Me. I feel really good about this comming work week. However today I do feel a bit down in the Mouth. Kind of Depressed. Blue, Sad, I dont know Why.? But I know The Sun will agine Rise in The Morning. So For today. NO Drinking. This is Day One. And because of My Sad Mood I will Be having one of My Favorite Compfort Foods for Dinner. Stouffer's Mac & Cheese. The Large size with Fresh Ice Cold Tomato Slices. Yum Yum. One of My Favorite Compfort dishes.
I havent Talked to My Freind JR from Church for More then a Week Now. Begining to wonder what has happend to Him.? He seems to Have Phone Trouble every Now and then.? Probably that is what is Up?
It will be a Early Night for Me tonight. My Dinner often puts Me to Sleep and that will be Ready in about 40 Minutes. So Untill the Next time. GOD Bless. Dan...

3/3/11
Thursday-Morning. 1:54 a.m. Good-Morning. I'am up very Early this Morning. To Early Really. Last Night I Fell asleep about 6:00 p.m. To Early. Was Just Very tired and Had a Good Dinner that Really Put My Lights out. Very Often My Dinner does that to Me. So This Morning I'am Up Early. Still Hoping to go back to sleep for a Short awhile. But I dont know.? Up This Morning fooling Around with the Hammarlund. Found a Loud Station and Waiting for the Top of the Hour Id to See what it is.? Its Raining out side this Morning. That allways seems to Help with Reception on The Shortwave.
Today is My Third day with out the After-Work Drinking And I feel Really Great. And I feel very confident that I will Continue this Way.? Its up to Me. My Choice. I Pray that I will make the Right Choice when that time comes.
I Still havent Heard from My Freind JR. Just dont know what is going on with Him right at the Moment.?
I'am Planing a Early morning Drive up to the Church this Morning in about 4 Hours from Now. So I do have time to Return to Sleep before Then. And Then off to work after that.

3/9/11
wednesday-Afternoon. 4:30 p.m. It's been awhile since I have been here. Had a really good 5 Days last week. Sober. Then the last 3 Days I had to go and Shoot My Self in The foot and Try one last time to Make the Afterwork Beer work For Me. It didnt. Today is My First day with out it agine. And I feel good. Glad to be back to where I need to be agine.
I have completely lost contact with My old Freind JR from Church. He is Not Returning My Phone Calls and He has not contacted Me for about two weeks now I think.? I'am Pretty sure He is ok. There are tomany People I know from Church that would have contacted Me on Facebook had anything happend to Him. He Might be down in California with His Mom.? Dont know.? Anyway I havent been up to Church in I dont know how long. Have been avoiding a couple of the Morning Worship People lately. Because they Know what I have been doing and are Conserned about Me. GOD Love them for that. But there is some Pressure there that I wish was NOT there. It will be ok.
Had a Really good day at work today. A Pretty Tiring day. I Stayed a little longer and got some Exstra stuff done. Tomarrow I would like to go up to The Morning Service. However... No Rotary at work tomarrow and I'am Needed there at 7:00 a.m. to Open up for the Crew. So I will Need to forgo that. Looking forward to Heading up there Tuesday Morning if all goes well. GOD Bless your Day. Dan...

3/11/11
Friday-Morning. 4:55 a.m. Good-Morning. And it is. At least here at Dan's House. Been up Looking at All The Tsunami Stuff that has happend over the past few Hours. Acctually I should say Earthquake stuff. I think the only Tsunami so far is in Japan? I havent heard anything eles. I dont have Cable TV so all I hear is what is on CNN.Com. and what I hear on The Hammarlund Shortwave. Been listening to The Voice of Korea for the last few days here. Interesting. Have been Planning to make a Short video of there Brodcast sometime in the next few days. Anyway this Morning they dont have much more to say about it then cnn does. I think its to early Now for More News on that situation.
today is My 3rd day with out the Alcohol. Doing good there. Feeling Really good and Positive about it. Dispite going through a really Challenging day Yesterday. Some bad stuff happening at work Yesterday and mabe today.? But I got to face things like that here on Earth just Like everyone eles does. I just need not turn to something that will NOT work at that time and focus My self on the ONE who gave it all for Me. JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. Through HIM. I CAN Have Victory. Thank YOU JESUS...

3/12/11
Saturday-Morning.2:57 a.m. Another good Morning this Morning. Feeling a bit tired and worn out this Morning Other then that good. It's Day # 4 for Me and Moving right along. I Seem to have lost My connection to The Voice of Korea this Morning.? Its not there and I fooled with the Tunning Knob and Now its really Not there. Seaching Around for it I have Tuned in a Spanish-English Station in Venezuela and Now they have just whent off the air at the top of the Hour. Hummmm. Well that is Shortwave DX'ing. Its fun to Play around with and see what you find.?
I have been watching Cnn.com last Night and agine this Morning. Just shocked at seeing all the Distruction over there in Japan with the Quake and Tsunami. It was Not apparent this time Yesterday when I first Reported that Here. Just amazing to see the Huge Waves comming ashore like that. I Pray for all those People there And even here on our Coast and around the world Now. Just a 100 Miles from My Home in Crescent City California they had Major Damage to the Citizens Dock there. Been there Many times in My life. It does Not seem Possible that something that Happend allmost on the other side of the world could cause Damage here in My Part of the world. WOW. Seeing all this Makes Me Know for a Fact that The Great Flood of Noah's time DID happen. It just Proves it I think. GOD I Think is Showing HIM SELF to those Who Wish to See.
Oh I think I just found the Voice of Korea at 11710 ? Not sure Yet.? It sounds like French. And they should go to English shortly.? Just have to listen.
Well will be heading off to work on this Saturday in about 2 Hours. today is Daylight saving time. Spring Forward later on today. That Means we Lose an Hour I think? GOD Bless. Dan...

3/14/11
Monday-Afternoon. 4:34 p.m. I have a New word to discribe My Self when I go off the Wagon and Have the afterwork Beer. I Call it Shooting My Self in The Foot. Aproprate I think. That is How I feel anyway when I do that. And this Week I did it only two times. The last two days. Today is Day one agine. And I feel good. I feel like I'am working My Way to Victory. I Really do. Perhapes This will be the Week I will Make it a full 7 Days with out it.? GOD will give Me The Strenght to have Victory. But its Up to Me if I do it or Not.
I have had a Pretty good day today. Just kind of Relaxed around the House. Got a few Projects done and out of the Way. Just Had a Great Dinner. Angle hair Pasta in a Cream Sauce and A Few Pieces of Garlic Bread. No Salad today. And I can feel My Dinner begining to Put Me to Sleep now As I sit here at the Desk listening to Sideband Radio. So I will Probably be in Bed by about 5:30 or so. I know that is Way early. But I like getting up at 2:30 or 3:00 in The AM. Its a Great time to Talk to The LORD. Begin to Plan out My day. Listen to what GOD Has to say to Me.? Its Just a Great way to Start the Day. And If there in NO bad Wintery type weather in The Morning. I want to Head up to the Fellowship for the Morning Service. I havent made one of those for some time Now. I'am sure there are a few People who have wondered what Has Happend to that Dan.? Some times I wonder that Too.? And I Hope to see My Freind JR up there.? or at least find out if anyone knows what Has happend to Him. Its been to long sence He has called Me. And last week I discoved that His Cell is Now Disconected.? Dont know what is going on with Him.? Hopfully will find out tomarrow.? Well untill Next time GOD Bless Your Day. Dan...

3/15/11
Tuesday-Afternoon. 4:46 p.m. So I Wake up this Morning at 1:55 a.m. The Heart-Burn had a good Hold on Me. Needed to get up and take something for that. Kind of a Regular thing these days. And then I was up for good. That is ok. Love the Early Mornings. Most people Might think its crazy. I find its a wonderfull time for some House work. (thats the crazy part) and Talking to The LORD. Did both of those this Morning. As soon as I turned My Cell on I had a Message from Good ol JR durning the Night. WOW its been like 3 Weeks since we have talked. Nice to hear He is still around. He left a Message asking If I could swing by His Place and Pick Him up on the way to Church this Morning If I was going.? I dont Know where He Lives Now. But I thought Cool Yeah. So I called there at 5:15 a.m. and He couldnt go this Morning. His Roomate Joe was really sick and JR need to drive Him to a Doctors appointment at 7:00 a.m. So I drove up to Ruch this Morning by My Self. Was a Nice Rainy Drive. Got up there Pretty Early. Got to Spend a few Minutes Talking to Cindi just before the Service. And that Was Nice. She Knows all about My Drinking Problem and Has been very out spoken to Me about it since before Christmas time. Then after the Service got to talk to Her BoyFreind Jerry. We all Whent to School togather so long ago. And Jerry to knows all about what has been happening to Me. He Knows all to well about it. Well there words to Me today were very Encouraging. I dont think they Know How Much so.? I feel Pretty Changed today. And I think I have Reached that Point of Victory Now. The Next 5 Days will tell.? Somehow I just Know. Its My time to Have victory over this Garbage.
After Leaving the Church I needed to go Pick My Mom up for a shopping trip to Winco. Sometimes it can be somewhat Frustrating on these Shopping trips with My Mother. Today was. She is 80 Now and slowing down alot. And I got to keep that in Mind and try NOT to let My Frustration show. I might Have failed a bit at that today. I hope it didnt show.? I know She wont be around Much longer. But I wont Regret any of the time I'am spending with Her Now. I hope My two Brothers and Sister wont have any Regrets about missing this time with Her. Only they will Know.?
Well I have been Home the Rest of the day here. Fell asleep once in The Recliner. And Now Pondering what is going to be happening at work this comming week. The other Key Man in The Morning got fired on Friday. And Now. I think I will be getting some more Early Morning time. And that will be cutting into My Early Morning Church time. I hate to lose that. But I need to be there as well. Its a good Oportunity for More Hours. And Right Now that would be good. I'am allmost sure I will need to be covering The Thursday Morning Rotary Group. I have NOT been asked yet. But I dont know who eles would be doing it.? So that Means I will be there at 5:30 a.m. on Thursdays.? But the rest of the days will be the same. Probably.? Mabe just more Hours. Will find out tomarrow.
Well My Simple Dinner tonight of some More pasta. NO Bread Is Starting to Put Me asleep Like Normal. So I will be off to Bed soon. Good-Night and GOD Bless.

3/19/11
Saturday-Morning. 5:00 a.m. Goood-Howdy-Morning. And it is a Good Morning here at Dan's House. Good Because this Is My 6th Day with out drinking. I dont beleve I have made it More then 6 Days with out the Afterwork Beer since Before ThanksGiving last Year.? Doesnt Matter anyway. This Is My Danger Day. I have allways given in and let My Self drink by this time for many Months Now. Today is Diffrent. I'am NOT NOT NOT going to alow it today. NOPE. I'am NOT going to let that Happen. Because Instead of Calling on the Beer later on this After-Noon. I will be calling on The LORD. And HE will Pull Me Through. I know HE will be there for Me. Today I'am going to Test HIM on that. Watch and See. I will Be Back this time tomarrow with Good News. GOD Bless Your Day. Dan...

3/20/11
Sunday-Morning. 3:09 a.m. Goood-Howdy-Morning agine. Well I did Indeed make it yesterday with-out the Beer. And Now it is My 7th Day. It may NOT sound like Much. But its a big deal to Me since I havent made it that long in Months. Today will be the Hardest day I'am sure. Its My Friday. Made it through a long work week. A Good Week. And It Will Be a Early day into work this Morning. Before 6:00 a.m. And a Early Day off work as well. Will Probably put in a 4 to 5 Hour Day today then I'am out of there for a few Days.
On Sunday afternoons I like to get home early and finish any House Hold work I need to get done. Special Projects, Unfinished House work, Outside work, What ever. Get all that finished today so that My Week-ends are free for what ever. Usually things to do with Mom and Church & Freinds. I Acctually Have two Projects to do today. I still Need to finish up the Antenna out-side. And as it is Raining agine today. I wont be doing that. And the other thing I have to do is Replace My Diningroom Celing Fan with another bigger & better Fan I picked up last week. That will be a big Project for sure. So this is My Most Dangerous time for wanting the afterwork Beer while Celabrating another good work week in the books. And working on some Fun end of the week Project. I will Have a lot of Difficulty with this today. Its going to be hard. Infact I feel My self weakening right at this Moment thinking about it. I feel like I deserve it some How.? Well If I do fail today. I will Still Have Victory over the Alcohol because I did make it to My 7th day. Oh My goodness. As My Freind Jerry from Church would say. I'am making Excuses Now Like He can do. Well we will see. Untill Next time GOD Bless. Dan...

3/21/11
Monday-Afternoon. 2:00 p.m. UUGGHHH. Its been a Bad day for Me. I did infact drink yesterday afternoon at Just about this time. I Guess I kind of Knew the last time I was here that I was going to let My Self have one last time with the Beer. Just to show My Self once agine that it Does NOT work for Me. And After 7 Full days with out it. Well Lets just say I got very sick from it. As Exspected. And I Have been very sick today as well. Feel ok Now. Well sort of......
Well I didnt get to Put up the New Fan as I planned to. This is a Used Fan that was given to Me sometime in the Past and Unfourtunatly Part of the Mounting Hardware is Missing and acording to the People at Ace. That Part is NO longer avalible. So I dont know what to do at this Point. Could Possibley Build something? Well anyway that will be on Hold now. But I did get My Attenna Finished. Just had some Lower Recievers to Install and Now its working good.
So Now I'am back on Day One. And that is Ok. I Truly showed My Self yesterday Just how bad that Garbage is. And I'am just to old Now to Be doing such stupid things. I didnt even like My Self very Much yesterday while doing what I was doing. That is a Big Deal. Well I think I need to go Prep some dinner? Not sure what I will be having tonight. And I will comeback later on.

3/22/11
Tuesday-Morning. 3:50 a.m. Good-Morning. I did Not make it back here last night after dinner. It was once agine the Case of My Dinner Puting Me to Sleep. I Was Not very Hungery so I just had a Simple Soup & Salad. Very good. Had a Pretty good Nights sleep. Not the Best but Much better then the night before. Today is Day two for Me. I have been up for allmost two Hours Now. And getting Ready to Head off to Church this Morning. And then off to My Mothers House for a Shopping trip and what ever eles She Needs today. So I got a Pretty full Day. Right Now I'am making a Video of The Voice of Korea on The Shortwave Reciever. Its the Top of The Hour and they are doing there Id thing. I Lost that Station all of last week. Couldnt find it on The Hammarlund. But Now I have Found it agine. Interesting to listen to the English Part of it. Very Anti American. And I heard a lot about our involvment in Libya this Morning while listening to it over the last Hour.
I do have a Video I made Sunday afternoon before I got Home and will Upload that here today.
Well I got to get going here. Falling a bit behind in time this Morning. So Untill Next time GOD Bless. Dan...

3/26/11
Saturday-Morning. 2:00 a.m. Good-Saturday-Morning. Just woke up about a Half an Hour ago. Acctually I kind of got woke up Early by some Unusual Noices out side. So I Guess I'am up Now. What The Heck. Its going to Be a Very Early Day into work this Morning. 5:30 A.m. So It all works out good. The Reason I'am going in so Early is Because of a Bit of a Experiment. I have a one Hour Meeting down stairs today a 9:00 a.m. This Morning. Employee Meeting. And I need to get a lot of Bread out today. so I'am just Courious If I can get a Batch of Bread done in Just 3 hours.? Have Never Really Timed that before. It needs to be Put togather in the Mixer. Mixed, Taken out, Alowed to Proof a bit on the Table. Then Rolled out and Put on Sheet Pans, Then into the proofing Box to finish Proofing. Then Baked in the Oven. All in 3 Hours time. I'am talking about 60 Pounds of Bread that will make 40 Loafs for today. And I will Need to make atleast 2 of those Batches today among other things to do in the Bakery. So It will be a full day Exspecially with losing an Hour sitting in a Meeting. But that is the Way the Cookie crumbles. I'am just Blessed that I have a Job a Place to go to. And The ability to work and Earn $ to live on. Its all because of JESUS. JESUS WHO without HIM. We would be Nothing. I am so Thankfull for JESUS. And So Happy what HE did for Me and Now HE is Presenting Me to The FATHER. WOW So Huge. HE does that for each of Us If We Just Come to HIM and Beleve. So sadly so Many around Us dont beleve and Wont beleve. But all we Can do is Tell the Truth and Pray for them...
Well I have had a Pretty good couple days since last Here. It is Day 6 for Me. And I'am at that Danger Point Now. It will be My Choice tomarrow afternoon. I Hope and Pray I will Make the Right Choice.
I have a couple of Videos to Upload today. Taken of the Voice of Korea Brodcast. I Finnally got them figured out as far as there English brodcast. It will begine in Just about 10 Minutes from Now. 3:00 a.m. Pacific time. I Have had The Hammarlund on for the last Hour and Have Heard Nothing from 9.335 Mega Hertz. So when the Brodcast begins here at 3:00 a.m. It should be 8:00 P.m. at Night there.? I dont know? But its interesting to listen to. So far away. Well I got the camara Rolling and listening to The Begining of Voice of Korea. Not comming in Really Well but good enough. This will be my last Video of this Radio Station. I hope to find something eles to listen to soon. Something Deep in the Heart of Europe Perhapes? Will be looking around soon.

3/30/11
Wednesday-Morning. 3:39 a.m. I havent had very good days off. Started Sunday afternoon with Me. I Drank afterwork that Day. For No Good Reason other then it was the end of My work week. Stupid. Just Stupid. And Then Life got even Stupider when I alowed My Self to Drink Monday late Morning while here at home. Nothing to do. And it was a nice sunny warm day out side. And I wanted to go outside and Wash Cars and do some outside work. WOW I Drank alot that day. To much. And that Resulted in a bad day Yesterday. Had to take Mom Shopping in the Morning. Didnt go so well. Very Frustrating. NOT Fun. But I didnt Drink yesterday and Here I'am on My Day two Now.
This Morning as I'am up and getting ready to Head off to work soon. I feel kind of Down. Depressed. NOT wanting to go to work this Morning. But I know once I Get going The LORD will be right there with Me. And I know My Day will get better as it goes on. Just have to get going And Call ON JESUS to walk with Me today. HE will be there for Me I know.

4/2/11
Saturday-Morning. 3:24 a.m. Today is My Fifth day with-out drinking. Moving along fine there. It has been tempting the last two days. The Weather Has been really Nice and Sunny. And that Has allways been a Hard time for Me to pass up the afterwork Beer. But so far so good. This Morning I notice we have Rain out side. Not Predicted to stay around Much this week.? Work has been a little Challanging this weeks so far. Getting Busyer Now. But going good. I will be working one of My Days off this week. Being in Charge of the Bakery that is what happens. But its all good. And I think that will Acctually Benifit Me In My Attempt to NOT have My usual Sunday afternoon Beer. Thanks to The LORD for Arranging that. HE is doing HIS part in Helping Me to Beat this. Now it is time for Me to do My Part.

4/7/11
Thursday-Morning. 4:30 a.m. Well I didnt do My Part. Somewhere In there I whent backwards in Life Or so it seems. Mabe I need to be going through this Hard time Now.? Anyway Made some Bad Choices since I was last here. And I'am Paying for it Now. Feel Pretty bad this Monday Morning. I dont even remember what day I lost control and Made a Bad Choice.? Does Not matter I Guess. Its time to Start over once agine. I Sure get sick and tired of doing that. This week I only have 4 Days to work untill I will be looking at Days off agine. But of course that can change. I will Try with all My Might to keep the Bad Choices away. JESUS will be there for Me. I just got to call on HIM...

4/20/11
Wednesday-Morning. 3:49 a.m. I'am The Birthday Boy today. It's My 51rst. Have been still Struggling with the Bad Choices for the Last few days and getting very sick and tired of it. I'am MAD at My self for Making these Bad Decisions about the afterwork Beer. It seems like I can go 3 4 5 days at a time with out it. Then suddently I start being stupid and think I can go back to it. I know better then that. I know it wont work.
So Today GOD Has given Me another Chance at it. Starting today. Starting on My 51rst Birthday. I get another Chance to Give it up for good. GOD Has given Me another Opportunity. I have another Chance. What Am I going to do with it in the comming Days.? Will I call on JESUS in the Comming days.? Or will I call on Something Eles Instead.?...

4/22/11
Friday-Morning. 2:45 a.m. I Allmost Drank Beer Yesterday after work. I was Planning it for awhile. But I did NOT. I Called on JESUS instead and Beat that Desire Yesterday. What Happend You Might ask.?
The Day Started out Great. Whent up to The Early Morning Service. Had a Great time there. For the second week in a Row. I Was Blessed by Running into Freinds out in the Parking lOt on My way out. Last Week it was Pastor Web. And this Week it Was Pastor Ben. Just Brief Little Encounters. A Few Minutes of Chat. And then we are on our Ways. But a Blessing to Me. So I go to work from there. Arrive at 7:30 a.m. ish. Have to work Silently untill 8:00 a.m. Rotary is Meeting up Stairs untill that time. A few Hours later things are going good. Looks like a 4 1/2 to 5 Hour day. Then My Boss comes in and Dumps over 2000 Easter Eggs on Me. to be Boiled and Colored. The Bella is Donating them to I dont know who? Suddently I have another 5 Hours of work to do with out Notice. I got kind of Upset about it Yes. But I know its My Job to do what ever Needs to be done. It was the NO notice thing that bothered Me. So I begine to Buckle down and start this Giantic Project. And a little angery Yes. And the Next thing I know. the enemy is wispering in My ear. "well Dan You Really Deserve that Afterwork Beer tonight. And I started Beleving that. For a Couple of Hours that is Just what I was Planning to do as soon as I got off work. But there at the End of My Day I called on JESUS. And HE Was there for Me Just like HE Promised to be. HE made a Change in Me. And I was Able to just drive Past Several Stores on My Way home. I DID'NT stop anywhere and Buy Beer. Made it home. Late Yes. Tired. Got Cleaned Up. Changed Cloths. Made a nice dinner. And Before I could even Wash the dinner Dishes HE. JESUS was bringing a Good Sleep upon Me.
And Now here I'am agine. The Next Morning. Starting My Day. Thanking JESUS for all HE has done for Me and Continues to do for Me and You. I would NOT have stayed sober Yesterday if I had relyed on My own Power. I could NOT do it on My own. I got to do My Part. And that is Calling on HIM. Remembering what HE did for Me so long ago. Rejocing In HIM. That is How We beat the enemy.
I will be calling on HIM agine today. Still got lots of those eggs to finish today. Have to be finished today. Getting Picked up later on. So another Long Day is in Store for Me. GOD BLess Your Day. Dan...

4/28/11
Thursday-Morning. 5:10 a.m. Things were going really good The last time I was here. And then less then 24 hours later I'am drinking agine. Today is My Day 3. Starting over agine. Sure am getting sick & Tired of this...

4/29/11
Friday-Morning. 4:39 a.m. It's Day 4 and looking & feeling Really good. It's also Pay-day. And I know I will Really be facing the Desire for the afterwork Beer in about 9 Hours from Now. Going to Make it. NOT going to Alow it back into My life...

5/4/11
Wednesday-Morning. 5:06 a.m. I took a Slight Detour down the Road of Stupidity on Sunday afterwork. But Now I'am back on Track. And its Day three agine...

5/10/11
Tuesday-Evening. 5:01 p.m. In the last 10 Days. I have only Drank on two of those days. The last two Sunday after-noons. And They were both a Real Bummer. It May NOT sound like it. But I'am making Progress. And feeling Pretty good about things. Mabe? this will be it. Mabe? I will Make it past that 6 Day Mark this Week. Today is Day 2...

5/23/11
Monday-Afternoon.3:57 p.m. It's been allmost two weeks since My last visit here. Honestly Dont Remember How Many days I kept away from The Booze. It's all kind of a Blurr. I Spent Three Days Drinking last Week. And They were The Worst Three Days I have Spent for a long time. So Much Happend. So Much Whent Wrong. And I'am Still Having Problems from Those three Days of Drinking. I Hurt My Stomach with The Drinking I did 5 Days ago. It's Not Really bad. But Bad Enough. I have a Head-ach Most everyday Now. And That is No Fun. But I think back to Some of My Prayers. I did Pray to My FATHER. Thy Will be done. Not My will. I Asked HIM to Do What ever HE needed to do to Keep Me From Drinking. And Beleve Me. I couldnt Drink these last few Days because of the condition My Stomach is In. Well I had a lot More I wanted to say here Now. But I'am Not feeling all that good right Now. I think I'am Ready for Bed right Now. And Its barly after 4:00 P.m. So I will Return here in the A.M. Hours to Continue This. Good-Night. Dan...

5/24/11
Tuesday-Morning. 2:36 a.m. Good-Morning. And It is a Pretty good Morning so far. Been up about an Hour this Morning. Feeling Pretty good I think. Slight Head-Ach this Morning. I have been waking up Every Morning with a Bad Stomach and Head-Ach for a Week Now. this time last week it was because of The Alcohol The night before. And after My Last Day of Binnging I have been sick everyday with The Head-Ach and Upset Stomach. Today is Day 6 for Me. I did get Past My Danger Day. Sunday Night with out drinking. My Next Challange is to get Past That Day 7. And This Time I'am going to Make it. I'am sick and tired of My Self being such a Loser over this Drinking Thing. I think If I decide to Drink agine I will Just Pour My Self a Big Glass of Gasoline instead. And I'am NOT doing that. I got Things to do Here. People Depending on Me. I dont got time to Waist being a Loser anymore. It's time to Move on Now. Time to leave The past in the past.

5/26/11
Thursday-Morning. 2:30 a.m. Goooooood-Morning. WOW. Finnally I Wake up with-out the Blasted Pounding Head-Ach. It feels so Goooood to finnally Wake up Feeling Good. Yesterday Was Horrible. Stomach & Head just Killing Me all day lOng. But today I Feel so Good. Thank The LORD for Seeing Me through This And Bring Me to My 8th Day with-out the Beer. I made it. So Happy. I havent whent 8 Days with-out Drinking for Months & Months. It may not seem like much. But it is a Big Deal for Me. A Huge Victory. JESUS. JESUS. HE got Me Through This. And I'am NOT going back Now.
I left work really early yesterday afternoon. Was So sick. But I Just needed to come Home yesterday and Rest. And that I did. I must have fallen asleep about 4:00 p.m. When I woke up Hours later I found a Message from JR on My Phone. He is doing better and was intown. Infact I think He stoped by My House. But I was so out of it at that time. He could have Shot off a Gun out side My House and I might Not have Heard it. And This Morning I found a Message From Jerry. Also from last Night.
So This Morning I'am up Bright and Early and feeling Great. Going to take off and Head up to work about 4:00 a.m. Try to get caught up on some work I didnt get done Yesterday. Then will Clock out for My Break at 5:45 a.m. and Head up to the Morning Service for an Hour. Applegate Rotary will be meeting Up Stairs at The Bella during that time and I cant be up there making alot of Noise anyway. So that works out really good.
Thanks To JESUS. I have Made My 8th Day and feeling good Now. Its time to get My Self going agine. GOD Bless Dan...

5/27/11
Friday-Morning. 3:39 a.m. Good-Morning agine. And It is another Great Morning for sure. Day #9 for Me. And looking good and feeling good. My Second day with-out the Stomach & Head-Ach. What ever was going on has now passed. We Have Rain Now on This Memorial Day week-end. And today is Pay-Day. Havent had to face the attack from the enemy yet concerning The Alcohol. I know its comming soon. And I'am sure a New attack of some kind.. Calling on JESUS. That is The Answer. I will be Tested agine soon I'am sure.
I got a letter from My Filipino Freind Cecile Yesterday in The Mail. It has been quite awhile since we have Exschanged Letters. I have been very Neglegent in doing so. I used to send Her letters and enclose "Psalms Project" CD's from My Church as well. Thought that was a cool thing to do. Spreading GOD Word to other Countrys. I need to start doing that agine and NOT finding exscuses to Not. Finding Her Letter in My Mail Box yesterday. Well Its Perfect timing I think. Now That I'am finnally getting Rid of The Bad Life Style I have whent back to for the last Year. Here comes Cecile to Show Me there is a better way. A Way I used to know and love. A Way I forgot About for a Year while liveing in Addiction. GOD is work in Our Lives. Of that I have No Doubt. The Key is Letting HIM do HIS work and NOT fighting it. WOW I could go on all Day about this. But I got to get Ready and Head off to work. will be Back agine soon. GOD Bless Your Day. Dan...

5/29/11
Sunday-Morning. 4:00 a.m. Seems hard to beleve its allmost the First of June and here we are still Having cold Weather. I have had to Heat My Den up a little This Morning. It's Sunday Morning. My Friday. My 11th Day with-out Drinking. Just Thrilled about that Victory. Thanks To JESUS. Today will Be My Testing day I'am sure. And I'am going to make. NOT going back to what I know does NOT work. NOT going to get Tricked into that agine. Will be Heading up to The Church tomarrow Morning to Meet JR and Who ever eles is there. And I think We might go do some HIking after the Service Or what ever. Should be Fun. I also Have been trying to Sell a Ladies Diamond Engagment Ring on Craigslist for the last 4 or 5 Days with No Luck Yet. I found it Years and Years ago in a Parking lot here in Medford. I attempted to find the owner back then but No One Clamed it. So I have had it around sence then. I thought I would keep it and Mabe the right Girl would come along and WOW I would be set. NO Just kidding. I wouldnt do that. I would Really be in for a good Face-Slapping for Sure I think. Well Its time to try to sell it. With Gold Prices at what they are. Well Untill Next Time GOD Bless. Dan...

5/30/11
Monday-Afternoon. 2:45 p.m. Been a Really Great Day. 12 Days away from The Alcohol. Feel so good about that. Yesterday while at work it was a Struggle. I had about decided there about 2 Hours before I got off work that I would probably got to the Store after work and buy Beer. But Something Happend. JESUS. HE happend. And by the time I left work. I didnt Want to drink. And It didnt even bother Me that I drove Right past the Store on My way home with-out stopping. Oh Man... I can do it if I call on HIM. That is The only Way for Me. I Spent Years trying it the other way and It did NOT work. Thanks To The LORD. HE will be there for us. Guaranteed.
Whent up to The Church this Morning. Had No Idea that they would be closed down for the Holiday. Acctually I didnt make it all the way up there. got Just a bit out of J'ville and JR called me to tell Me there is No service. So I kept going to JR's New Residence there across from Log-Town Cemetary. We spent some time there at His Place then took a walk up the hill to the OLd Historic Cemetary Walked around there for about an Hour. Interesting. Been there lots of times. Finnally found that Grave of Frank Carter I Was looking for about two Years ago. Forgot My Camara. Oh Well there will be another Day for that.
Well I Can't stop thinking of My Freind Cecile and Her Son Ralph Christian in The Philippines. Every since I got that Letter from Her a few Days ago. It Just was Perfect timing for Me. Gave Me something to look forward to I Guess. Gave Me a Desire to start Writing Her agine and Sending the CD's over seas agine. I got to remembering Early this Morning that I Was in The Middle of Writing Cecile letters when I Suddently began Drinking agine. I havent found the letters that I was Writing just before the Addiction began agine. But I did find some I had written to Her back in very Late 09. And those.. I had Written to Her while at the Morning Services over a Period of weeks & Weeks. I took My Pad and Pen with Me this Morning to begine writing Her agine. But of Course didnt have a Service this Morning. Will Begine writing Her agine tomarrow Morning. Really looking Forward to getting back to the Things I like to do like that. Well untill this time tomarrow agine. May The LORD be with You. Dan...

5/31/11
Tuesday-Afternoon. 5:15 p.m. It's been another really good day. Rain agine. Had a good Morning up At church. JR didnt go. He called Me at 5:00 a.m. and said He was Pretty sick agine. dont know what is going on with Him.? I Whent anyway. Sat there during the Service and wrote a Nice long letter to Cecile. Told Her a lot of things from My Heart. Things I guess I should Have said to Her More then a Year ago. I'am afraid I gave Her the Wrong Idea back then when we first Met. Perhapes I led Her on.? I dont know. But We are still Freinds. And Suddently I Realize Just how good a Freind Cecile is. And How Badly I Treated Her. I Hope My letter of today will Exsplane alot to Her about Me.? It Should. Brought Tears to My Eyes Writing it.
Talked to Jerry for awhile this Morning as well. He is doing good. Togather We Inspire each other NOT to go back to something that we both know does NOT work for either one of Us. He is accurally working there at the Church at the Moment. doing some construction work. That is Great.
I'am having a real Bummer time trying to Sell that Ring on Craigs list. Oh. Man I tell You. Well just a bummer time trying to find a Buyer. I think its about time to take it to a Pawn shop and get Next to Nothing for it. What a Shame.
Well dinner is Made and been Atein (is that a word.?) dishes Have been washed. I guess its time to go watch something on the TV and go to bed. Good-Night. GOD Bless. Dan...

6/2/11
Thursday-Evening. 6:14 p.m. What a Day. It's been good & Bad A Real Struggle today. I had to go to work Twice today.Ok. From The beginning. Whent in at 4:00 a.m. Knew I had a lot todo today. And it is My Assistants Day off. A Few things whent wrong right off the bat. But I didnt let it get to Me. Clocked out for My Break at 6:00 a.m. and Whent up to The Church. Wrote Cecile another Letter during the Service. I only Stayed till 7:00 a.m. Had to head back to work then. Had CranBerry Bread in The Proof Box. Needed to get back before that was over Proofed. Barley Made it in time.
Today. June 2 is The Bella Union's Birthday. I Think We are 23 years old Now.? The Owner Jerry Wants to Treat each one of Our guest with a Complamentery Champagne Shell of Chocolate Mousse. For The Next Week will be doing that. Free Mousse. Guess who Has to Make That Mousse from Scratch Everyday. Yup Me. Well Its not to Hard to Make. Its just that We Need so Much of it each Day. I Call this Week The Mousse-ethon cause it just goes on and on forever it seems. Well today after I left they started burning through it very fast so I got a call to go back up there and Make two More Double Batches. I Was Not very Happy about that. Had Just gotten Home. Well Its all over with Now. But YOu know what. Is just that kind of thing that Should drive Me Right back to Drinking. Yes. That Kind of Stress is what Makes Me Not care anymore and Say to My Self "Well F this Dan." "I Guess I will Just Get Drunk." That is What I should Have done. But I forgot to. HOnestly. I did. I forgot to get stressed out and decide to go buy Beer. I didnt think about it untill I was Home from my second trip to work today. I simply forgot to make that bad choice today. Now if that is Not GOD working in My life. Then I guess I just dont know anything. I think it is Proof Positive that GOD is There and Answering My Prayers. I know for a Fact that is what it is. How wonderfull HE is to be taking that Desire away from Me. I could NOT do it. HE had to. Thank You My FATHER. YOU are so Good to Us.
Well Yesterday I sold that Ring I had On Craigslist. Got the Full Price as well. I have been going through Stuff Here at My House and have found a few things I want to sell there. However I dont really Like dealing with People on Craigs list. I had a couple Bummer People to deal with about the Ring. Wanting to Trade things for it instead of $ I Was Kind of Shocked at what I was offered by two diffrent Young Ladies instead of $. The world sure is Changing. Well its about time for Bed Now. Its been a day. A Good day. I got Tested today. And I Passed I think. I didnt Drink. Tomarrow will Be My 16th day. I have Not Made it this far since atleast Oct of Last Year. I have Victory. Thanks To JESUS. Good-Night Dan...

6/10/11
Friday-Morning. 2:30 a.m. Good-Morning. I'am back on Day Three agine. Had a bad couple of days last week starting with Sunday Morning Through Tuesday Evening. But I managed to Get Sober agine. Getting Ready to Head off to work Now for a Very Busy Week-End. Will Be back Here In a Few Days. GOD Bless Dan...

6/14/11
Tuesday-Evening. 5:00 p.m. I dont even know where to Start.? It was another Bad week. Finnally got wraped up with The Mousse-ethon. What a Drag that Was. Last day of that Was Thursday. And Then a Busy week-end in J'ville Sent Me right back to Drinking Sunday Night. And it was a Real Bummer. Woke up Yesterday Morning with a Bad Head-Ach. And That Just made it Real easy to drink agine on Monday Morning. I HATE My Self when I'am like that. I Was Like a Diffrent Person. I'am embarressed to Say. I Was Like a Wild Gorilla That Morning. Practically Foaming at the Mouth waiting for 7:00 a.m. So I could go to the store and Buy More Beer. And did Nothing all day but get drunk and Play around on a Online Virtual world I Have been a Member of since 1999. during the Morning I got several Phone calls from Jr and Jerry. But Of Course I couldnt have cared less at the time and did NOT answer the Phone. Passed out somewhere around 1:30 in The afternoon. And Have NOT had any since. I did go up the Morning Service this Morning. And That is Rare for Me to do that after drinking the Night before. I'am Glad I did. It Really Made My Day. so everthing is good today. Feeling good. The Desire for the Alcohol Has left Me Now. And I will be ok for a few days at least. but I know the Stress of work will be a Problem this week-end. I will Have to deal with it for sure. But for today. I'am back to Normal Now. It Was a good day. will be back soon GOD Bless...Dan...

6/18/11
Saturday-Morning. 5:54 a.m. So Far so good. Day Five. Today & Tomarrow will be the Big Test. Fail or Victory... I know GOD Still Loves Me And JESUS will allways be there for Me to The End...GOD Bless...Dan...

6/21/11
Tuesday-Afternoon. 4:00 p.m. When I Wrote My last Post of Saturday-Morning. I Realize Now I was allready Planning to Drink later on that day afterwork. I did. And I have Received My Wake-Up-Call about this Drinking Problem of Mine. Lets go back 4 Days Now...
Everything Was going ok. Good here at Home Good at work. How ever My Mother had taken a Fall agine on Monday. Its been a long time since She has done that. She didnt get Hurt as usual. But None the less Its Not good at Her age. She is going on 81 Now. But She was doing fine since the fall on Monday. Well for some Reason by saturday I just simply stoped Caring about My Self and just gave into the Desire of the Alcohol after-Work. And When I do that. Well everything Changes. I just stop caring. So I drank Saturday. & Sunday Night. Even stocked up on Coors-lite so I could start first thing in The Morning on Monday. My Day off. Got up about 3:30 a.m. Hung over as Normal. I knew Jr would call Me at 5:00 a.m. to see if He could catch a Ride with Me up to The Morning Service. He just lives a Mile North of Ruch. So I Waited for His Call. Had some Nice Greasey Bacon and Potatos for Breakfast. And When He called I lied to Him and told Him I just didnt feel like going. And as soon as I Hung up the Phone. I cracked open My First Beer and whent onto My ActiveWorlds (virtual world) to finish a Road Building Project I started More then 10 Years ago. I finished it too. It was fun. thousands of Miles of road way leading to the North End of the world. Well anyway. that is what I did the whole Morning. Played on Alpha-World and Watched The Sixth Season of Emergency. Just Waisted The day. Did Nothing to give Glory to GOD. Just Waisted. Passed out from Drinking about 11:30 a.m. or so. woke up at 4:00 p.m. in The afternoon Sicker then a dog. Flat out Hung over. found 11 empty Beer Cans in The kitchen. I Was NOT doing very good at that time. I Was Pretty sick. Tryed to go back to sleep about a Dozen times. It was kind of HOT. And I Was Missrable I made quite a few Prayers to My FATHER for the Next 5 Hours. didnt drink anymore. Except lots of Water And that didnt settle with My Stomach. I dont know why I lost the desire for the Alcohol during that 5 Hours I was trying to go back to sleep.? I was a disaster area for sure. Asking GOD to NOT ever alow Me to do this agine. How Many times have I Prayed that.?
I finnally did fall asleep somewhere in there about 10:00 p.m. I got up to use the Bathroom at 12:30 a.m. and found My Cell Phone in there. And There was a Message on it. I knew it had Not been there before. I thought it Might be JR. It was NOT. It Was My older Brother calling to tell Me He had Just taken My Mother to The Providence Emergencey Room because She was Having bad Chest Pains. My World Just colapesed at that Moment. Here I'am Still Way Hung-over And Now My Mother is in The ER. I didnt know what to do at that Moment. I whent into the kitchen and Made My Self a Cup of Instant Coffee and Knew I needed to get up there. The Message was about 40 Minutes old at that time. I needed to get My slef togather fast. With Head Pounding and Stomach up set I made a call to My Brothers Cell. No Answer I tryed to Call My Sister. Called the Wrong Number there. So I started getting Dressed. My Brother called Me back said there up there Waiting for Test He and My Sister. So I get My self togather. still very sick and drive up there to the Hospital. I only live about 3 Miles from Providence. made it very Quickly. Got there to the Parking lot Saw John and Christys Cars. I had to sit there for awhile in My Car and Pray to My Father to give Me the Strength to go in there. It took Me awhile. But I finnally Grabed My bottle of Water and began the Walk to the Enterance of the ER The Whole time feeling Like I was going to Start Throwing up at any Minute. I HATE that. That is what The Alcohol does To Me. makes Me Afraid of everything. So I get in there and They send My Sister out. No More then 2 Visitors at a time. Talked to Her a bit. It Was Not looking to bad for Mom. So Then its My Turn to go walking back into the ER. And Of Course Mom is all the way back in Room 17. So I got to walk The entire ER. And I'am seeing Bad STuff that is Just Turning My Stomach When suddently I Familar Voice calls out My Name. It Was Brain Johnson a former Co-worker of Mine from The Medford Redlion. Well That was a Big Relief. He told Me He Was Moms Nurse and Exsplained what was Happening to Her. They Could Not find anything so far but Had one More Test to do down the Hall. A Catscann. After about 20 Minutes they came to get Her for that. and It would take an Hour. So We Waited and Waited and Waited there in The Big Waiting room in The Main Hospital. The Whole time My Stomach in Knots. My Head Spinning. And GOD Just spoke to Me there and Said. "Dan. Your Mom is Really going to be Needing You from Now On.""You dont have time to Waist on Things that you know dont work." It truly is a Wake up call for Me Now. I Cant afford the time to be Drunk and Stupid when My Mother is Not doing good. I got to be there for Her I know. Well We got Mom back Home at about 4:30 a.m. and By this time I was feeling a bit better. Infact a lot better. got Home just in time for Jr to call me and I aggreed to Meet Him up there across from Log Town Cemetrery and take Him up the Morning Service. Was really looking forward to That. How ever as soon as I sat down in The Sactuary and Service started My Tiredness and Hang-over really caught up with Me. I began Writing a Letter to Cecile and only completed one Page. I Was so tired and Sleepy. I feel asleep twice durning the service. I left soon after the Service. Came home and had a nice Nap. And Now here at allmost 4:00 p.m. I'am agine getting Pretty tired. will be turning in Early tonight I think.
Well I got a lot to think about and Pray about in the Next few days. Am I going to Put My Selfish Desires before My Mother Or Am I going to Put Her First as GOD Has Commanded Me to do.? I'am going to get Tested on This I know. She Needs Me Now. She needs to come First I Know...And I need to Stay focused on JESUS And HE will give Me the Strength I need to be there for My Mom. Amen. GOD Blessing to All...Dan...

6/27/11
Monday-Afternoon. 3:58 p.m. It's been a Hell of a Week. We Had to Put Mom in The Hospital Sunday Afternoon. She is a Very Sick lady right at the Moment. She will be there in The Hospital for some time.? To Early to Tell. Lots & Lots to talk about today. But I'am Beat to The socks. I'am Ready to go to Bed Right Now I'am so tired. Got a lot to do Tomarrow. Am Hoping that I can find the time to Start the Day out at Church.? That is My Strength. JESUS. Today is My 7th Day with-out drinking. I Desperately Need to Stay Sober NOW.. I Can't be there for Mom if I don't.
Well that is it for Today. Just to darn tired and worn out Now. Will be back soon with News about Mom. GOD Bless. Dan...

6/28/11
Tuesday-Morning. 9:45 a.m. I dont know why I just started this Post.? I got to be up to the Hospital in 15 minutes. Meeting My Sister up there. Well anyway. Had a good Morning up at Church. Met With The LORD and some of My Freinds. It was Really good. Much Needed. And Now I'am off to Providence Medical Center. Will be back later today. Blessing From Dan...

7/5/11
Tuesday-Afternoon. 1:20 p.m. Mom is Home Now. Its been a few days. She is doing ok. But it's easy to See Her life is Drawing to a Close here on Earth very Rapidly. She is 80 Years old Now. And Now I'am a Mess agine. Drinking agine. I dont know why I alow this even today. Here I sit at Home drowning My Sarrows. What a Mess I can make of the life GOD Gave me. Will be back when I get My Ding Danged Head on Straight agine Dan...

7/9/11
Saturday-Morning. 5:20 a.m. Sadly. We will Have to Put My Mother in a Home on Monday. We. My Brothers & Sister Saw this comming over the last few weeks. And. Well I will come back here sometime to finish this Post. Not today. When-ever. This Just sucks right Now. Sorry. Dan...

7/18/11
Monday-Night. 8:50 p.m. will be doing My Next Post (via) YouTube. Here is The first of I dont know How Many Videos for today.? Still Making them as I Type.

7/20/11
Wednesday-Morning. 3:30 a.m. Two final Videos from the week-end then back to Normal Updates. GOD Bless. Dan...

7/25/11
Monday-Afternoon. 1:44 p.m. Two New Vids. Not Sure of The Quality.?...

8/8/11
Monday-Morning. 5:58 a.m. I have become really Burned out on this Web-Page. And have decided to NOT Renew My Domain-Name. Its due at the end of this Month. So The Pageofdaniel.com is going to be NO more in a few weeks. I will Possibley be comming back to this sometime in the next few Months using My Old Charter.net address.That is where You find Me after The first of September.

8/16/11
Tuesday-Morning. 9:00 Started Drinking this Morning at 5:30 a.m. Crazy I Know. Washed the Car this Morning while the Morning Service was Playing on KAPL. Wishing I was there at that Moment. Mom will be Returning HOme on The 12th of September. Aginst our Wishes and Her Doctors wishes. Not Much we can do about it. So Much to say there. Just Not able to at this time. This Webpage will be comming to a End on The 25th of this Month. I Thought I would be able to keep it going through My Free Charter Webspace. I Can Not. I can Not find My Log in info for the FTP. Cant Reember What it was. And REally jUst dont even care Now. So it looks like I will Not be there anytime in The Future. However I Really do want some time in the Future to bring back www.thepageofdaniel.com or .org .net Mabe Next year at this time. Hopfully by that time I will have gotten over this Ding Dang Desire to Drink My self silly a few times a week. I know I can with JESUS. But at this time I just dont seem to want to do that.? So I bid You Good-bye. GOD Bless....Dan...

8/19/11
Friday-Morning. 5:15 a.m. Well I just found My log-in Info for My Free Charter Space at Charter. So It looks like I will be able to continue thepageofdaniel there. It Might take awhile for me start using it agine. But Hopfully that is where I will be. Take care GOD Bless. Dan...

10/9/11
Sunday-Afternoon. 1:40 P.m. Well Here I'am... Back finnally. Been allmost two Months. Lots & Lots has happend in that time. Quickly... I left off with Mom. She Has indeed NOT came home.. She just can not live on here own any longer. A lot has happend with Her. Will be talking about all that soon. Have allso had My Hands full with a Freind from the Morning worship at church Who is Really Struggling with the Same Addiction that I Suffer From Alcoholizm. He is Much Worse then Me. Have been in touch with Him by Phone Most every day for about 6 weeks. But Have NOT seen Him in Person for about 3 Months. As I keep Struggling with the same Problem. I cant seem to Help Him. I'am not really sure what to do there. And the other big thing in My life is continuing to work at My mothers House. Cleaning. Packing. Putting Her stuff in Storage. What a Job. And since I was last here. I have Two X Girl Freinds on My Facebook page. One I'am ok with... The other... I'am Not. And If It had Not been for Me being Really Drunk one Day last month. I would Never have accepted Her Freind Request. But To late now. Will be back agine soon to Elaborate More on all these Situations. GOD Bless.

10/12/11
Wednesday-Afternoon. 12:30 p.m. Today. Was supposed to be My First day sober After drinking Pretty heavy for the last 72 Hours. WRONG. Not going to happen. I just Got Really bad News from My Boss concerning My Job. Oh its still there. But I will be losing at leaset a whole day of work each week. WOW is GOD ever challenging Me right at the Moment. And I seem to be losing this Battle with the Drinking. You know Mabe this is bad time for Me to be here doing this. Cause right Now All I want to do is Say out loud F*@#. Loud enough for all to Hear. Well since I wont be working tomarrow. Mabe I should come back then to finish this Post....

10/13/11
Thursday-Morning. 8:30 a.m. Just got off the Phone with My Mother. She Was doing Ok. But Still insisting that She is Ok to go Home. She Told Me that Her up comming Doctors appointment on Tuesday. She is sure that She will be Released to go Home. Mom Has No Home to go to. She Knows that. And When we Reminder of that. That is when it starts getting Ugly. And Now that I have let that situation bother Me. It is Now So Easy to be Cracking open My First Beer of the Day At 8:45 a.m. Trying to forget about what is Happening to My Mother. It's Not Her Fault of course. The Dementia thing She Now has is just getting worse and worse. As Her doctor told us it would. Mom's Birthday is tomarrow. She Turns 80. She is living at the Orchard Assisted living Near Providence Hospital. Not far from my House.
Well Lets go back to Yesterday. I Was so Bummed out and Depressed Yesterday during My last Post. But Honestly I feel Much Better today. Even though I got quite Intoxicated Yesterday. GOD came to Me during the Night and gave a bit of Peace of Mind. HE Pointed something out to Me. And that is... HE has Made it Very Very difficult for Me to continue on the Path of Self Destruction by taking away part of My Income. I am Convinced That GOD is NOW taking things away from Me. In order to get Me off the Boze. It may sound kind of Mean to Most People. But I honstly am kind of happy that HE has Stepped in and has taken from Me. What It all boils down to is that Starting today I know have 3 Days off work each week. I go back tomarrow work Sat. Sun. Mon. And have Tues. Wed. Thur. off. that will Put Me down to about 25 Hours a week. Now this is Only Temparary. But. I cant make it on 25 Hours a week Pay My Rent. Support two Cars. Insurance and Have food to Eat and My Part if the $ that go to taking care of My Mother Each Month. I simply can NOT do all that and Maintain a $50 a Week Alcohol Habit. I Cant do it. I will end up needing to drop Car insurance. Internet. And probably Cell Phone Service as well. And Not Heat up My Home this winter. Which Has basicly started today. Kind of chilly out side today. So If I give up those four things starting Now. I can still afford My Alcohol Each week. Well The Hell with that. I'am Not giving up any of those four things. The Alcohol Must go Now. Or soon. And I thank The LORD for putting me in this Position. Because I would just continue it on and on because I can. Now I must lay down the law to My self. And Do what I know is Right for Me. I can do it. GOD has given Me the Power to have victory over this before. But Now HE has had to get a little Rought with Me. As I have NOT been doing what I know I needed to do a long time ago. So Over the Next few days. I got a lot to do. Tomarrow is Payday. And It will be my last Full Paycheck for awhile. I really have No More time to spare. Infact. I have just enough supplys for drink My self silly Just a few more days. I will Not buy anymore. I know that is NOT the correct way to go about it. I know I need to go to the table and get down on My Knees. And I know JESUS will Meet Me there and The Healing will begine. Its Just getting My self to the table Now is going to be the hard part. I have given that advice to My Freind Jerry countless times in the last Month. Not sure what affect it has had on Him.? But its time I starting taking My own advice instead of just sitting here feeling sorry for My self. I will Return in a bit. Need to Get something to eat.

10/14/11
Friday-Morning. 5:24 a.m. I Must Apologize for My Use of Bad Launguage Yesterday During My Post. Even though I hid it. It's still there. And Probably should Remain as a Reminder to Me of what I become after all day Drinking. Not good. And Not the Person Ia'm Normally. I'am really feeling Pretty good this Morning. And Getting Ready to start My New work week. Only Four days Now. Today is Payday and Mom's Birthday. Not Planning to drink today afterwork. But I'am sure things wont go good later on in the day with Mom. Being Her Birthday and all she wants is to go Home. Its hard to deal with let Me tell you. So More then likely I will be tossing back a few later this evening. Also have about 6 Calls to Return to My Freind Jr. He Knows what is happening to Me. and He calls during the Night and leaves Encouraging Messages on My Cell. I thank The LORD for His Freindship. Well I will Return agine soon. But only when sober. I hope And Pray that will be tomarrow. Dan...

10/20/11
Thursday-Morning. 4:54 a.m. I have been up for about 2 Hours. And I had a Pretty terrible Nights sleep. But there is a good Reason for that. Yesterday. Was My First day with-out drinking. I did it. I made it. I did Not have anything to drink Yesterday. I'am so Happy and thankfull to The LORD for being there for Me once agine. Yesterday. Was a good day. constantly aware that I Was NOT going to Drink. Oh it was Not easy. I Was Tempted. More then a few times. But I stuck to My Guns And Refused to give in to the Temptations from the enemy. I Beat him with JESUS Help.. Just about Bedtime last Night. I started to feel the Physical Withdrawls comming on. Not bad. could have been a Whole lot worse. But None the less. I had Trouble falling asleep. And Once I did get to sleep. It seemed like I woke up every 5 Minutes to toss & Turn. So It was Not a good Nights sleep by any Means. But a Better NIghts sleep then I have had for a long time. The Bad Dreams are the worst for Me. But that is Over Now. Feeling really good this Morning. And I have a Pretty full day ahead as well. will be in and out of the House through out the day. And I would like to come back later on in the evening to put down some end-of-the-day-thoughts...Untill then. GOD Bless. Dan...